valerieaustin1's Journal, 13 January 2015

So right now I've had my dinner and although I'm 99.9% certain that my food choice was in line with my food plan, I'm also 100% certain that portion size was not.

I know what happened. I've been in a bad situation here at home. Hubby & I got into a huge fight Sunday morning. He hasn't spoken to me since. I have 2 other people in my house that he has spoken with since then so it's very hurtful. There's too much underlying to even want to write about but the bottom line is I'm very hurt. The longer the silence the longer worse I get with feelings of such worthlessness. It's a very lonely time for me and I have no one that I can really share this with.

Tomorrow is my first weigh in at the doctors. It's been 30 days. It was to be a great family night of celebrating success. We've all looked forward to it but now, this is where I am and if I think too long on it I can't help but cry.

I'm grateful for this outlet.