I am 21 years old. I'm a college student and have struggled with my weight since elementary school. There were points in between elementary and junior high that I was at a normal weight however most of the time I was overweight. In high school I gained a lot of weight and became obese. It took me a long time to realize how unhealthy I was and how much being so heave was affecting my life overall. I made many changes and am determined to reach my goal weight. I have been progressively changing my goal weight as I go in order to stay motivated but final goal weight is 125.
This hasn't been easy. I wish I could say I am much healthier now and leave it at that but I've become a obsessed with food and everything related to it. I was diagnosed with EDNOS about a year ago an continue to struggle with it but I'm afraid to "recover" because I don't want to gain all of the weight I've lost so far. I want to be 125 lbs so badly and I feel like people don't understand that. This time I'm not going on a diet for 30 days or cutting all carbs. This is different. I am aware of the fact that EDNOS or any eating disorder is a horrible and harmful thing but I just have to get to 125.
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