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08 September 2010

Weigh-in: 388.0 lb

lost so far: 2.0 lb

still to go: 176.0 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

add comment gaining 0.8 lb a week

05 August 2010

I’m miserable.

That is probably a bad way to start out a blog, but it’s true; I’m fat, uncomfortable in my own skin, not liking my job right now and just not happy.

My wife is still amazing and Evan has been a lot better lately, as far as being a brat. I couldn’t ask for a better marriage or kid, so my personal life is perfect…I just need to make some changes somewhere.

Last Thursday, I had a “sleep study”. I’ve known that I have sleep apnea for years, I’m not an idiot. I snore, I’m always tired and Jackie doesn’t sleep very well because she is always listening for when I stop breathing, so she can wake me up. During the test, the lady said that once I fell asleep, if I stopped breathing or it was bad, she would come back in and put the CPAP mask on me….that took like 15 minutes!!

I was hooked up to wires, straps, a CPAP machine and all this other shit and I remember thinking…this is my future. The doctor said a lot of it has to do with my weight and if I could lose some weight, it would get better, I guess this is the turning point in my life.

I’m 32 years old and weigh 385 lbs. and I’m miserable. The way I see it, I have two choices from today on…

1. Continue on the path I’m going, spend the rest of my short life hooked to machines and die of a heart attack before I’m 40.

2. Make some changes, get healthy and try to be around for a few more years…and NOT be miserable.

I can honestly say that I’m addicted to food….I love everything about it, but I also have to admit that I can’t just stop cold turkey.
(although eating it is actually healthy.)

I did it once before and since then, I’ve tried several times…always failing. I come on here and talk about everything I’m going to do…and then never do it. \

I’m not sure what I’m trying to get out of writing this, I just got stuff on my mind and trying to really grasp the situation. I totally understand that my weight is getting to a serious point, but I still don’t seem to care…even though I’m miserable. WTF?

I have everything in place to lose weight, I know exactly how to lose weight because I’ve done it before….so why am I NOT doing it? Not even trying over the last month or so…

Love, Peace and Sharkyness!
~~~~ShArky~~~~
Sharky@SharkysWorld.com
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Weigh-in: 384.0 lb

lost so far: 6.0 lb

still to go: 172.0 lb

Diet followed poorly

add comment gaining 0.8 lb a week

30 June 2010

How Pathetic Am I??

The answer to this question is pretty simple…VERY!

I decided to start “losing weight and getting healthy” exactly 6 months ago on 1.1.2010. 2010 was going to be DIFFERENT! I was going to reach my goal weight before I turned 33 years old. I was going to live long enough to see my son have a child. I wasn’t going to be the “fat father” that was an embarrassment to his son.

THE RESULTS?

I lost 10 lbs. in 6 months. I was up to as high as 15 lbs. lost but gained a few pounds back for a total of 10. Tomorrow is July 1st, and I have exactly 6 months to turn this year around. Evan starts his 2nd year of preschool this year and will go into Kindergarden next year, so I basically have a year to get down to a reasonable weight so the other kids don’t make fun of him for having a huge father.

I have laid out the plan a million times, so I don’t need to come here and talk about all the shit I should be doing…I just need to do it and next year, talk about all the shit I DID!! I know how to lose weight because I’ve lost over 100 lbs. in the past…it’s seriously not rocket science and it really doesn’t take the much hard work…it simple takes making smart decisions, focusing on the goal and making some small changes. I know that I don’t have to go from what I do now, to cutting my calories and killing myself in the gym tomorrow, because that won’t work…this isn’t The Biggest Loser.

One small change today will add up to hundreds of small changes a year from now and all of those small changes will give me huge results and I know this…I’ve proved this.

These 6 months have flown by and if I would have just stuck to the plan and focused on my goal, I would be down 60 lbs. right now…

That isn’t just pathetic; it’s really sad and pisses me off that I’ve wasted even more time.

Hopefully, 6 months from now, on 12.31.2010, I can write about how successful that last 6 months have been….

Love, Peace and Sharkyness!
~~~~ShArky~~~~
SharkysWorld.com
Sharky@SharkysWorld.com

Weigh-in: 380.0 lb

lost so far: 10.0 lb

still to go: 168.0 lb

Diet followed poorly

(1 comment) gaining 0.6 lb a week

05 June 2010

378 lbs. !!

I'm down 11 lbs. since last Monday....I'm out of the 380's and don't plan to go back. I'm really surprised I lost anything this week because I've been sick all week and haven't been walking at work.

I'm feeling a lot better so back to walking on Monday and back to writing....should start updating a lot more now that I'm not coughing up wonderful stuff!

Love, Peace and Sharkyness!!
~~~~ShArky~~~~
SharkysWorld.com
Sharky@SharkysWorld.com

Weigh-in: 378.0 lb

lost so far: 12.0 lb

still to go: 166.0 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

(1 comment) losing 3.8 lb a week

27 May 2010

I’m just tired of being fat….period.

Last night, I suggested that we go out to eat and my wife asked me “what are you wanting”? My wife knows me and she was thinking that I wanted Chinese or something bad….and I said Subway. Then, I actually got a healthy sub and didn’t do bad.

What has been my reward for eating right and walking on breaks for the last two days…..6 lbs. lost!!! I know it’s all water weight and just the quick little weight loss you have when you make changes but it’s enough to get me motivated again. I’m only 2 lbs. from the lowest that I’ve been all year and I’m ready to do this….I’m just tired of being fat, there is no other way to say it. There wasn’t a certain moment where a sexy girl laughed at me or a buff guy called me fatty….I just realizes yesterday that I’m tired…and if I wasn’t fat, I wouldn’t be tired anymore.

I’m working on getting the eating down this week….changing what I eat and how much and working on making the right choices when we go out. Just because I’m trying to lose weight and get healthy doesn’t mean we have to stay in the house all the time and never go out. You can eat healthy ANYWHERE….yes, even McDonalds! You just have to do the research before hand.

A friend of mine left a comment on my last post and suggest that I start using SparkPeople.com. I tried SparkPeople back in 2005 when I lost 117 lbs. but I wasn’t too impressed with it…I found FatSecret.com but never really used it until now. FatSecret takes a while to get use to but then it has EVERYTHING you need to be successful.

I’m sure SparkPeople is great and I have an account there but it just seems like FatSecret is more for me, plus they have an awesome APP for my cell phone. It has a bar code scanner, so I can just scan what I eat and it adds it for me and I’ve never found anything not on there….even store name stuff!!

Love, Peace and Sharkyness!
~~~~ShArky~~~~
SharkysWorld.com
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