I'm just trying to get my life back on track.. I found out last May (2009) that I have 5 fibroids in my uterus which makes it about the size of a 5 month pregnancy.. I went through the stage where I said.. f*** it, i'm already fat, who cares what I eat anyway. . . I was extremely depressed and ate for NO reason, I felt like I needed to punish myself in some way. I then got somewhat through that stage and started a treatment which gave me CRAZY side effects (doc told me i'd be 'going through menopause') how crazy is that!, i'm 25 years old and shouldn't have to feel that way! Well, needless to say, that treatment also allowed me to gain weight easily which DEFINITELY skyrocketed due to my eating habits as well. Needless to say, i gained AT LEAST 20 lbs. in 2 months and now i don't fit into ANY of my clothes... i literally had to buy new fat clothes, which is so ridiculous.. it's SOOOO hard to get back in the habit of working out when i feel so heavy and lazy while still dealing with crazy emotions and side effects.. but i'm trying to do it before my 26th birthday because i always hear that the older you get the harder it is to lose weight. The thing that gets me through this is that i have a wonderful man by my side that constantly puts up with my craziness and tells me i'd be beautiful even if i was 500 lbs. unfortunately, i don't feel the same way .. i feel like if i can't love myself, i can't love anyone else.. i'm way to self-conscious. sooooo this is just for EVERYTHING.. my health, my sanity, my love ..