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I lost about five pounds in the past week or so. This is my lowest my weight has been since Ive graduated high school. At my heaviest (December 2009) I weighed more than 160lbs. At barely 5' 2", that is extremely overweight yet I never realized how heavy I actually was. I blame a lot of my weight gain on depression and a lack of confidence. I didn't care about life anymore so I decided to make the way I looked fit the way I felt. Then I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease and that forced me to completely change my eating habits. I began reading each ingredients listed on every single thing I ate and if I didn't understand what one was - or knew I shouldn't be eating it - I would put the food down and find something else to eat. As the route my personality tends to take me, I became a bit too obsessive over this tendency but in no way did it hurt me. Now im just very picky about the food I eat and wish to know everything that is in it. Therefore I tend to never eat out and I cook all my own food. I still have a large amount of medical issues I am working out and the healthier I get the more I realize how unnecessary emotions and physical issues can be solved by changing the things we put in or around out bodies. One day, when I am healthy again, I would love to be able to educate people on how to treat there bodies, minds and souls properly.
It feels really good to know that Im doing positive things for myself by eating healthy and being more active. Im doing this for my health, and of course to look better in a bathing suit, but Im afraid of loosing my realistic thoughts about weight and looks by being here in southern California. People have a sense of entitlement here and there is a digesting obsession with the way people look. I could go on and on about this, which I may just do in a few posts or more, but for now I am here to enjoy and to focus on furthering my own life in a healthy an positive direction and to look for the positive in anything, while taking it all with a grain of salt. No more looking back in the past or worry about an unknown future. Its 2012 now, and with all this talk of the world ending and yadda yadda yadda, my new years intention is to realize this is my own life and realize it may be the only one I get, so I may as well start enjoying it.
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137.0 lb
Lost so far: 5.0 lb.
Still to go: 12.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 01 January 2012:
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1423 kcal
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Fat: 40.39g | Prot: 123.55g | Carb: 138.63g.
Breakfast: grapefruit, organic peanut butter, gluten free bread. Lunch: nut thins, tuna. Dinner: stonyfield vanilla yogurt, trader joes hot dog, apple, green beans, carrots. more...
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1653 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
cardio bootcamp course - 3 hours, yoga - 1 hour, Resting - 12 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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losing 4.4 lb a week
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