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I seem to be staying the same weight...which I get why but at the same time I feel like I shouldn't be staying the same. I'm not very hungry ever...and when I eat I'm full for hours. Most days it takes me like 2/3 hours for me to even be able to imagine eating something else. And if I snack during the day I'm even less hungry. I know I probably shouldn't worry about calories but I can't really not. Its just so apart of who I am...I like to know what I eat and how many calories. Food calories is so interesting to me...I guess you could say its like my porn....lol. I love it. I love my calorie counter book...lol. And restaurant guides with all the calories...I love reading them. Mostly because then I know what to never eat. Its weird how my mind works. I think about what I eat before I eat it...and decide if its worth it or not. Mostly the things I want aren't worth it, so I pass on them. And some of them are small things I'm ok with...like Oreos. God I fucking love golden oreo cookies. Lol. I only eat like maybe 3 a day, so its hard to feel super bad about it. Its like my little treat, somedays I eat them with peanut butter. This whole being pregnant thing is so hard sometimes. I feel like all I ever do is eat...I know I don't. But I'm always trying to figure out how to keep myself occupied and then what to eat. And then I worry about how I need to go to the gym. I always forget until late at night...which is when I am least and most motivated. I'm not actually motivated enough to do anything. And then I get really tired, really fast at night. I need to start working out....but I always forget. But since I'm not really gaining weight I'm not too worried. I don't want to lose weight before my next doctors appointment. He might get really worried about me. And then expect me to report of what I eat all the time...which I don't want to do. Because then I will have to lie about what I eat and add things like meat and cheese and dairy. Because I don't want to have to tell my dr that I am vegan. Unless he asks, I'm not telling because I have heard of wayyy too many terrible stories about dr's freaking out on women who are pregnant and vegan. I take care of myself and my baby, so I don't think anyone needs to worry about me. Me and my little boy will be just fine.
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