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Went to Avalon today and caved in and ate 2 tiny peices of Peni's cake and then 1/2 of an awful cheese scone,threw the other half out and went and got a medium peice of Peni's very sweet cream filled cake. I got so tired and and depressed after eating that damn cake. I am so weak. I even prayed about not caving in at that meeting because of the goodie room! Eventually I will not be able to go anywhere where there is food that is bread or bakery goods. I just cannot trust myself. I can't just eat a tiny piece. A tiny peice starts up a massive craving and then fatigue sets in. Then depression sets in. I get moody and feel just awful from sugary stuff. How will I ever win at this. I just want to not be addicted to this and have this kind of problem. I just want to be in control and love eating healthy food and in moderate amounts. I hate feeling like such a failure.
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121.0 lb
Lost so far: 1.6 lb.
Still to go: 1.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 29 September 2015:
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1790 kcal
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Fat: 80.68g | Prot: 63.33g | Carb: 238.74g.
Breakfast: Half and Half Cream, Astro 2% Plain Yogurt, Apples, President's Choice Coleslaw, Loblaws NN Mixed Berries, Holy Crap Skinny B, on GOLD STANDARD Protein Powder GOLD STANDARD FRENCH VANILLA, Blueberries. Lunch: Half and Half Cream, Heinz Tomato Soup. Dinner: Butter, Potato, Lucerne 1% Partly Skimmed Milk. Snacks/Other: Coconut Cookie, Dairyland Creamo Half & Half, Custard Filled Doughnut with Icing, Thrifty Foods Cheese Scone. more...
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gaining 0.5 lb a week
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