Yes I have eaten alot less than even what I recorded as when on a normal two weeks one week my body fights lossing and I find with in less than a week only a few days it will show a loss. But since I have been in panic almost sheer terror over this that I still dont know what is and I hurt terrably my skull is so full of pressure its busting open the BLANKETED PRAYER YOU ALL DID FOR ME AND MY CHURCH EVERY ONE THAT I HOPED GOD WOULD AT LEAST GIVE THEM A SECOND THOUGHT FOR ME EVEN IF THEY DID NOT BELEIVE TO PRAY---THIS ALL STARTED 7/13/15--- When me and my son & caregiver Tad had to take me immediately to ER and WHAT FOR ?????????????????????????????s
So I get my food to log in diary or I input what I know I have to eat then GUESS WHAT I THROW UP, I CHOKE, SO EVEN ---- well that is only a small portion what has been going on with me to me around me IT HAS BEEN SO BAD THAT MY BIPOLAR HAS REARED ITS HEAD AND I MUST GO BACK ON ABILIFY. So for many days I have ate ZERRO consider this FASTING even though FASTING IS YOUR CHOICE AND CAN GLORIFY GOD AMEN................but when it is trying to cause so much TORMENT THAT YOU LOVING CARE BEAR SON WHO HAS BEEN CARING FOR MY MY INFIRMATIES IS TO THE POINT OF HAVING ME COMMITED maby if you or any one else had walked in my shoes since the 13th --- maby your physical (at this time temporaily to me --- Excuse me as I am about to bring out THE SEMI-TRUCK DRIVER, THE VETERIAN NAVY LADY, THE SINGLE PARENT, THE IRS WORKER, AND SAY SINCE I AM A BRAND NEW ChristainJew knowing for the 1st time in my life at 62 years old Finally I know Who I am, I know Who I want to be, I know When I GO to meet my Maker that I am a Whole ChristainJew, I am a Child of the ONE AND ONLY TRUE LOVING LIVING GOD WHO WHO HAS ADOPTED ME THRU THE SHEAD BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST MY LORD AND SAVIOR AND WITH THAT SAME BLOOD SHEAD DID ADOPT ME AS HE WAS A FULL FLEDGED JEW/HEBREW/OUT OF NAZERATH MAKEING ME AND ANYONE THAT CHOOSES HIM A UNREJECTABLE UNREJECTABLE REDEAMED BOUGHT AND FINLLY I ACCEPT AND AM SOLD SOLD PAID IN THE MOST PRECIOUS BLOOD THAT EVER HIT THIS PITIFICIAL EARTH THE BEAUTIFUL PLACE I CALL HOME. AND AS ADOPTION WAS NOT ENOUGH FOR ALMIGHTY GOD THRU HIS SON SENDS THE HOLY SPIRIT AND AND AND THE BLOOD IS ROYAL IN LINE OF DAVID OF ISRAEL THAT SO HAPPENS THAT THIS DAVID OF ISRAEL IS ALLOWED BY THE ONLY GOD THAT SENT HIS SON TO LAY DOWN HIS LIFE FOR THIS AND (ALL ChristainJews and Jews for Jesus which are JewishChristanins and any one who FREE WILLS to Choose Jesus Christ) TO BE FULFILLED. Know this even thou I am not living in heaven ----------- I am flesh and blood, here part of this mandkind---- same as everyone else subjected to the Attack of the EVIL ONE which I know with out a dought and he's has no intention of letting up.
Being quiet and trying not to post as I cried out for prayer and FS Buddies did give me a second thought in the very least.
I am doing all I can not to lose it I have the PCP apointment tomarrow at 9am and it will be ????? I dont know how log before my ENEMY IS IDENTIFIED HOW THIS SICKNESS? BRAIN TUMER? HERITARY SEZURES? WILL AND I PRAY WONT WONT AFFECT THE REST OF MY LIFE Sorry Sorry Sorry I am also here not glorifying GOD I am mad as hell over all this and damit I am not giving up and I am not giving in, I am not a Quitter the Navy taught me that, let alone how to damit How to KILL ANOTHER HUMANBEING WITH NOTHING BUT A PENCILE TO TAKE IT AND SHOVE IT UP THRU THEIR UNDER THROAT AND JAM IT AS HARD AS POSSABLE INTO THEIR BRAIN.
Do you truly think now that I have shared this think in one Iota care about what I have lost in pounds? Realy? Realy? I am still as I was when I opted to put my physical body on a table and have my GUTS RIPPED UP AND OUT to 100% Fight with everythink I could to save my life it on the 13th tried to take MORE THAN MY LIFE WHICH WASN'T ENOUGH FOR THE EVIL ONE- BUT TO DO WHAT HE PROWLES THE EARTH EAGERLY TO DO STEAL, KILL, AND DISTROY AND AND AS WITH MY CARE BEAR SON CAUSE SUCH DECEPTION MISS COMMUNICATION TO RIP HIM IN ANGER HURT AND MISS UNDERSTANDING EACH OTHERS MOTIVES RIP OUR ----ROCK SOLID--- RELATION TO THE POINT IT WAS FASTLY HEADED FOR ERIVERSABLE AND INTO NO NO RELATIONSHIP SEPARATION PERMANETLY.
I STILL HAVENT SAID IT ALL AND CANT THIS IS HURTFUL AND I AM SO SO EXAUSTED THAT THE ONLY STRENGTH I HAVE IS THE PRAYERS THAT YOU ALL GAVE UP FOR ME AND I AM A SINER AND IT IS THE TRUTH i harbor no ill feelings over this toward any one I know who is hiding the Diagnosis, who is causing distrust and discontent to further attack me and mine because I have pissed him off on 3/30/2001 The realisation of who I am . I put this down in a self made are I have in a frame over to my left side in a frame It declares
"ADOPTED"
"HEBREWS'S"
This complete residency is occupied
By one's Belonging to the LORD.
IN THE WILDERNESS WE WERE/
BLIND AND WITH OUT KNOWLEDGE
AND UNDERSTANDING.
"NO LONGER."
"ME AND MINE BELONG TO THE LORD.
3/30/2001
I am greatful to say GOD Bless and ALL Shalom to you and your FOREVER AMEN.