It's great to see you back! I'm going to quote you from your last paragraph in your bio: 'Do not beat yourself up if you "fall of the horse" just dust yourself off and get back on the horse... it took a life time to get to this place, and this is a life long journey...'. I know you've had some tough times and I'm not trying to minimize that, but I also want to encourage you to press forward and get back on the horse. It may take lots of effort but you know from the past how to do this and that the effort is worth it. Hang in there my friend. Every day is a wonderful opportunity for a fresh start. :)