So, I've ballooned up like a friggin' whale. I guess I could say that this is a milestone, because I stopped purging completely, but the result was some massive weight gain. I'm so embarrassed, and while I feel like I've recovered from the worst of my disorder, it's so tempting to fall back into it. You lose weight so quickly...
I'm just super frustrated, and I don't feel anything is going to help. I set a new goal. 45 lb in 9 months. That's 5 lb a month, which doesn't sound that difficult until you realize that the sabotaging months of holiday food are right smack dab in the middle of it. I'm considering joining weight watchers or south beach, or that nutrasystem thing.. I don't know though, it sounds like a lot of money.
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