wmw999's Journal, 20 June 2019

Thank you for your support you guys. Been kind of down because of so much much stress and have been sort of binging but worst of all have not been exercising. Drank quite a few beers too. It’s good to see that my behaviour did not affect my weight much. I might have set myself back though. I think I feel positive about getting back on track tomorrow.  

Perhaps the takeaway is that you are being too hard on yourself? Apparently there is some room for you to enjoy your diet and still see progress. Way to go! 

@about yes, thank you, that is it. I’ve been used to being the ‘hot’ person who could never put on weight. Not trying to be narcissistic or anything. But have been in hiding and haven’t ever had the courage to meet any friends from college or my recently ex job. I spoke to a classmate from college today and i was asked to hangout. I think I have to embrace where I am now and just do it.  

I understand. I was always small and could eat anything! When I put on a little weight, people - those who were obese even - would criticize. It's not narcissistic at all. I understand the shame of not wanting people to gasp because of their expectation. It's embarrassing. Although you do not have a pic up, I am sure you probably still got it ;-) 

@About thaaaank you so much girl. That is exactly how I feel. I will put up a photo soon.  

Thank you everyone for your support. I think I am ready to get back on track. Things will always get worse or better, but they can not stay the same for long. So before I gain back all the weight I lost, I think I need to get it together, and I might just be able to make some progress by next week and some more by 2 weeks from now when I have to travel.