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wow, I have had an absolutely terrible few months. I was doing soo great.. from September until mid December I lost a ton of weigh,i was jogging and eating right. The Christmas holidays came, I got back into the habit of eating out with friends and big dinners and I was lost. It's like I am a complete addict to food, when I loose focus I can't just have a bad day and continue on I throw myself under the us and it's a full blown disaster. I can't figure out why I'm like this. It's now almost 3 months later, I;m closer to my trip to Greece and I'm 15lbs heavier. I feel so completey discouraged and depressed. I don't understand. I ahte the way I look. I can't handle looking in a mirror even, yet I chose food instead.
wahts worse is I ahve been really really sick, I ahve ultrasounds this week. I've been sleeping none stop and my lower back is killing me. I haven't had energy to even get through my day, little lone workout or jog.
I"m feeling completely deflated. I was too afraid to look at the scale until now. I guess i'm happy it's only 15lbs and i'm not back at 265. that would have really put my over the edge. I've been eating a bit healthier these last few days and hoping to find some bit of strength to pull through and succeed. I am not so confident.
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245.0 lb
Lost so far: 9.0 lb.
Still to go: 80.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 1.3 lb a week
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