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I intended on making country style ribs for dinner last night. Got lazy and had left over tuna from lunch. Hubby had feozen burritos. I am so fortunate that my hubby is so easily pleased. (he is 6'1 and weighs 175 lbs) he can eat anything. I look at it and gain weight. but he loves me so much that he makes it a point to eat things that he knows I don't care for. Tonight I will make the ribs for him probably some mac and cheese (his favorite). i will have some squash and zucchini with the ribs. I have days that I feel weak but today is not one of them. i had put on a few pounds of water weight and i got my water pills refilled got back on them and I am back down to 150.4. before I got my water pills i had gotten back up to 156. not sure why I retain so much fluid but i have to stay on top of it. I only have about 10 to 2 more lbs to lose to get to my happy place. wish me luck. (and lots of strength). i was 247 lbs when I started this journey almost 10 yrs ago. I lost around 120lbs and maintained. between 130 -up to140(130 is on the sickly side for my frame. I wear a size 0 at 137) I was put on steroids for chronic sinus infections and 2 back sprains in 2016 and 2017 I gained up to 181. I wanted to cry and die everyday. my grandmother said to me I don't want you to be mad at me but...(there is that but...) I was hurt but i also know she was right. when I lost all the weight before I know that she was genuinely proud of me and happy for me.(she loved me anyway) She passed away the day before my grand daughter's birthday(Dec 7) on Dec 6th of 2017. I have been working on this regain since then.(really since February.) I said I was trying and did here and there but my head and my heart were not in it. I am now at a point where I feel like I can do this. I realized that when I say I will do better tomorrow does not make that an excuse for everyday. I can't screw up everyday and start over. once in a great while is one thing but everyday cannot be a cheat day. I really need to see a therapist I think but I am not sure I am ready for that. In time. I just am thankful that my tool(bariatric surgery Duodenal switch) still works. I am excited about the weight loss and I am optimistic about losing the rest of it and being able to keep it off. I CAN DO THIS. I WILL DO THIS. Another off topic goal is to start my own business(embroidery and sewing). I think my grandmother would be proud(she wanted to learn to sew and I am the onlyone that even tries. I have taught myself a lot and I know she was proud of that) of both.
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150.4 lb
Lost so far: 16.6 lb.
Still to go: 14.4 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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steady weight
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