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I almost don't believe the scale today. I've been doing pretty good at keeping my food intake where I want it for now, but I haven't been working out like I should. I've been so stressed with my work situation and not knowing if I'm even going to have a job come June. Don't get me wrong I love that the scale is still going down but I need to get out of this depression. I just don't know how I'm going to handle not seeing the boys everyday anymore. Ethan just about made me cry this morning saying "I don't want mommy to stay home I want my Courtney!" I should be happy that normally when depression hits I gorge on food, it's my comfort, and this time I'm not so far.
I need to just keep telling myself God makes things fall apart so he can put better things in their place. Things will be okay. It's just easier to say them them to actually believe them right now. I'm going to miss my boys.....
Diet Calendar Entry for 10 May 2012:
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1038 kcal
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Fat: 47.43g | Prot: 58.88g | Carb: 92.17g.
Breakfast: smartwheat wonder bread, Simply Jif Creamy Peanut Butter. Lunch: Classic Yellow Mustard, Miracle Whip, Kosher Dill Pickle Halves, Green Onion, Chunk Light Tuna, Garden Veggie Chips - Sea Salt. Dinner: Sliced Pepperoni, 14" Pepperoni Pizza (Thick Crust). Snacks/Other: Mint Chocolate Chip Gelato, Cool Ranch, Cheese Heads 100% Natural Light String Cheese, 90 Calorie Chewy Granola Bar - Chocolate Chunk. more...
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