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Hey everybody. Things are going great! I am thrilled to be back at the gym. I am taking a multivitamin every day (One a day - Women's). It's a fantastic addition to my plan. I am feeling healthier, feeling and looking lighter. My coworkers notice a pep in my step, a more energetic person. I am getting better sleep at night without taking a sleeping pill or staring at the wall. I feel like my anxiety is down. The blood pressure medicine must be helping as well. I work in retail currently, After work I wanted to look at different dresses and decided to try 2 on. One dress fit perfectly, the other not so much even though the same size (different cut) so it went right back on the rack. I make no apologies. I don't beat myself down because something didn't fit. I look proudly in the mirror at what does fit and I see the determination in my eyes. I see how capable I am, what I can accomplish. I remember when I would hang my head in shame growing up while taken clothes shopping, how insulting a family member was saying very loudly, "Michelle. You aren't a large. You're an extra large. You better slow down. I think you should join the gym." Maybe I wasn't much in her eyes because I wasn't a small or medium. I look at that mirror though. I look into that mirror with fierceness. I let the harmful and damaging words slip away. I look very proudly at the dress that fits amazingly and the other with a blasé gaze. I don't get upset anymore if something doesn't fit. I look in the mirror, take in the beauty, and thoroughly take in the fierceness and drive.
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