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A much better day today and I'm currently (at 7pm) well within RDI having stopped eating dinner halfway through what I logged because I'm full!
However, overall it hasn't been a great week and based on this morning's weight I'm expecting to log a gain in tomorrow's weekly weigh-in. That will be disappointing but no more or less than I deserve. Which has got me to thinking about Kingkeld's journal yesterday about daily weigh-ins and the logic behind it. He (or one of his buddies) said that it's too easy with weekly weigh-ins to cheat or overeat and tell yourself it'll come off before the day to log your weight. That point struck home with me. I weigh myself every day anyway, but I only log my weight on Saturdays. Maybe a daily stronger sense of accountability (I can lie to myself but I can't lie to FS and my buddies when everyone's working so hard) will be a good tool to help me through this current period of low motivation.
I think what's happened to me and to my diet over the last few weeks is a combination of a number of factors. Firstly, I didn't have a huge amount to lose in the first place and when I reached my goal (fleetingly, a few weeks ago) I subconsciously thought it was easy and wouldn't be a problem any more. Although I stated in my journal that I'd like to lose a bit more, my subconscious sent me straight in maintenance mode, but without really thinking it through, so I relaxed too much and started to let some old bad habits back in. Instead of limiting those 'treats' to a couple of times a week, they quickly started to creep in every day, and often more than one treat a day, which is too often even for maintenance.
So the way forward is clear and the first step is to stick rigidly within RDI until I reach my goal weight again. I've done it before and after browsing the journals of some who have had far longer, more difficult but ultimately more successful journeys than I have I feel ashamed and disappointed at my lack of control. I know I have the willpower and inner strength to do this (I've been smoke-free for 15 years) so I have to apply myself again and stop giving in to silly temptations - in the end they don't satisfy anyway, they just make me feel disappointed in myself all over again.
I'm already feeling much more positive having written this and worked out a game plan in my mind. Let's get back on track and go for it!
Diet Calendar Entry for 09 March 2012:
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1262 kcal
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Fat: 36.66g | Prot: 41.02g | Carb: 200.50g.
Breakfast: banana, honey, dried cranberries, coffee, sunfllower seeds, yoghurt, granola. Lunch: cheese, apple, sweet red pepper, rye bread, pesto. Dinner: olives, Broccoli & carrrot soup, margarine spread, rye bread, egg. Snacks/Other: dried apricot. more...
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I also read kingkeld's journal and had some of the same thoughts you have about it. And I so "get" you talking about the old bad habits and treats...For me, though, it's not subconscious. I'm fully aware of "thinking it's ok" to relax my vigilance. That's what got me almost 40 pounds overweight, see. What I've discovered is that it's hard to only have one of something. I can do it, but it's actually easier if I just don't even start.
I think you are certainly "on point" for yourself. Good for you, thinking it through and coming to a decision about it.
I'm commiting myself to getting more exercise. I went for a 15 minute walk this morning, and really enjoyed it. Of course, I knew I would. That's never been the issue. It's more like fitting that part of life into my schedule, I guess. You know, when we were kids, exercise was just a normal part of life. Riding bikes, playing ball, running around the yard with the dog, jumping rope. As we get older, it's no longer just "what we do" somehow. I'm giving some serious thought to learning to play again, if you will. I think I can do that (walking) at least 3 times a week.
One thing is absolutely certain...I'm NOT going back to 168#. This was too hard to just throw it all away. :)
We're coming into the weekend...Hope yours is wonderful!
09 Mar 12 by member: Baxie
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Thank you Baxie. I'm also learning to play again - last weekend I joined an art workshop specifically designed and themed for play and it's the first time I've done anything like that for years - I loved it, and I just had to give myself some time off. Glad you walked and feel you can schedule it in. I don't think lower RDI is necessarily the answer because without increasing your metabolic rate you will start to feel hungry on less food but perhaps still not see the results you want. Have a great weekend :)
09 Mar 12 by member: Earthlady
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I'm glad you are in the positive mindset! :) You can acknowledge what happened, and where to go from here. I'm glad you enjoyed the art workshop- I loved surfing the site you posted.
09 Mar 12 by member: Lindsay6384
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