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Started craptastic, ended ok..
Was extremely tired this morning from staying up too late trying to figure out the sewing project i am doing for a friend, and i faffed about on the computer all day as a result.
BUT, i managed to force myself to the gym, at peak hour, and challenge my social anxiety pretty hard.. and got a better workout in today than last time. Not a proper one like i used to do, but a good start for someone that not too long ago was sleeping 18+ hours a day from depression and never went outside. Facing the crowded times was a good lesson for me. I simply do not give a fuck any more if i am the biggest in there or not, or the oldest or what ever. I am in there to fight this shitty lethargy laziness and physical decay one last time. I am there to get my clubbing body back if i can.
I have hung a picture of my self from 4 years ago, when i felt the best ever, up where i cannot help but see it all day long. To remind myself that i looked like that at age 51, that i had come back not once but twice from being huge (over 100kg) and that there i was a slim 60-65 kg and looked fab.. if ,my body could take the abuse of being big twice and still come out that well, i can at least come close this time, scars and damage and all.
I feel that the diet alone was not working - i was down to 1300 calories per day, and was barely losing a half a kilo a week? I must have short circuited my metabolism from the long long period of total lack of movement of almost any kind and the sleeping all day and night. I obviously have to kick my metabolism in the ass hard to get it to start working again..
well, that is what i will just do then. xx
did more on the bikes than last time at a higher speed and for longer duration. I did in total 6.5 km of biking, vibrating plate squats, side and front one leg balances (badly lol) as well as a seated ab and core crunch on there as well..did a nice set of 3x 20 ab crunches on the machine @ 25 kg, and a 3x 20 set of leg presses at 32 kg.. heel raises 2x 10 at the same weight.. inner and outer thighs, both 3x 20 @ 38 kg.... and i tried the elliptical but i find my foot and knees hurt too much right now for that. But, i did try..
What i found very important, was that i didn't really register the other people there.. it used to be that many people would freak me out, send me running.. today, i was too busy getting my life back to care about them..
after that i went shopping got groceries put them all away and am having a wee few grapes before i take the dogs out for their evening walk.
I am pretty knackered but i feel good about not blowing off the gym after just one visit. I was starting to find excuses.. that shit had to get nipped in the bud. If i don't get more exercise i will never lose weight, it's that simple. I will also never be able to walk properly if i can't take a load off my knees and feet. AND heart disease and diabetes on my dad's side can start to happen now.. time to get serious.
Diet Calendar Entries for 29 January 2015:
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1635 kcal
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Fat: 45.86g | Prot: 124.28g | Carb: 195.55g.
Breakfast: ASDA baked beans in tomato sauce. Dinner: Gulf Shrimp Raw Peeled & Deveined Shrimp, Roasted Broiled or Baked Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), Sweet Red Peppers, Iceberg Lettuce (Includes Crisphead Types), Balsamic Vinegar, Pink Lady Apples, Grapes (Red or Green, European Type Varieties Such As Thompson Seedless). Snacks/Other: 365 Green Ripe Pitted Olives, Clementines. more...
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3855 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Abdominal (Sit Ups) - 5 minutes, Grocery Shopping - 30 minutes, Driving - 30 minutes, Cooking - 10 minutes, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 6 hours and 35 minutes, Bicycling (moderate) - 13/mph - 15 minutes, Gym - 40 minutes, Watching TV/Computer - 7 hours. more...
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