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I did pretty good for Thanksgiving dinner. I ate about 2 spoons each of sweet potatoes and broccoli/cheese/rice casserole, then just stuck with the foods that were ok. I was totally satisfied and feel pretty proud of myself. Even so, the turkey and ham I ate were incredibly salty (compared to my regular sodium-free cooking) and I have drank water like a fiend ever since. I'm up only 1 pound but I'm sure it is fluid. But my mouth is dry and gooey feeling, even today. It makes me feel yucky and I have a headache. I'm very used to my regular diet and I just don't feel good when I deviate!
I had to go into work and 5pm last night and worked until 2am. It was horrible. I had a person quit, another no call/no show, and 2 call outs. This crap happens every year. Regardless of what everyone says about the business being good, NO ONE wants to work on Thanksgiving and it is always such stress for those that are there. I had a minor melt down at one point when I was down to just me and one new seasonal hire and had a store full of people, and I had to call another manager to come in and help. (As in, get up from the Thanksgiving table and come immediately.) I was crying when I called her and I guess she felt my desperation. This is a coworker that I've mentioned before, who it seems like has tried to sabotage my weight loss since Day One. She showed up with a HUGE slab of apple pie for me that was some special recipe she had made, "To make you feel better." Omg. So I took a bite and raved over how good it was and then stuck it aside and sneakily gave it to another employee later in the night and forbid them to tell her they are the one that ate it. hahaha! I know she would be offended and not understand. I can't eat that pie out of stress and for comfort! I would feel like such a failure to go back to those old habits and that would be the perfect ending to a shitty night! :( Or maybe she does understand, and that was her plan. I don't know. I hate office politics.
On another note, I made the decision last night that Christmas Eve will be my last day. I am giving my supervisor my notice today. I just can't handle this stress anymore, and maybe this will spur me on to make some much-needed changes in my life. I wont leave in the middle of the Christmas season, and that gives him a full month to find my replacement. I felt such an immediate sense of relief with that decision. I can tough through anything a month. It has been 10 years and while I've loved parts of the job, I also sort of feel like I just found out parole is coming up. LOL
Sorry for the long post. Got to get ready to go back to the madhouse again now.
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