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This is a private message I sent to my friend who motivated me to get off my butt and get started. I am posting it here so I can refer back to it when I need to reflect on how I am feeling right now. I am feeling good! Thanks Annette!
: Thanks! I really needed the support you gave me though! You definately say the things that I need to hear! It's easy to be defensive when you don't feel like doing something. You're right! If I want it that bad, I have to work hard to get it! I also think about when you said "If it was easy, everyone would be fit!" It is hard. Not all the time, but when it is, IT IS! But no one is going to do it for me, and I can't wait for some magic revelation to motivate me. I know that my size 18 pants were getting tight, and I was lying to myself when I thought I couldn't get any bigger. Feeling miserable. Shameful, sorry for myself, and jealous of everyone else al the time. In actuality, I still don't really know how to do it right, but if I try as much as I know how to and not give up when I do give in to the overeating, then I will be okay. It has been over a month now and I am still motivated, even more so! I read a post in my journal on here, my first one I think, and I DID make alot of excuses. I have lost 11 lbs so far. If I can do that at least 3 more times of the course of the year, I will be much happier with myself. I already am. And I appreciate your help, your example, and your encouragement. <3
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