First, do not be ashamed about welfare, because it is there to help you. I remember wic and other services were very good to me! And, I remember using Food Bank, now I donate to the food bank (when I can). You need to take care of you, so that you can take care of your babies. Eating healthy is needed right now, so that your weightloss will maintain when things start looking up. I understand hating working in Adult Entertainment but the money, oh the money. It will get you through hard times; I remember back in the day it got me though super hard times. I know being a single parent takes a toll on being able to work, but it is doable. Although, I have never been a single parent, my husband worked for days, weeks, months at a time for a long time and it was LIKE being a single parent. It was horrible. I teamed up with another girl, who also had kids... got more work, and watched each others kids when needed. It was a blessing to be able to work with someone who totally "GOT IT" when it came to Adult Entertainment and that lifestyle... so someone to talk to also, and have a babysitter! While keeping that job security, IE money. It is always very nice not to worry about paying bills. However, if you can get a job at Kmart, I hear that it is a good place to work for! Do you get discounts when you are an employee? Good luck honey! Oh, and check your inbox, I have a question for you...