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Thursday - March 20th. Thought I'd turn out a journal while I wait for Grace. We're going to the Local Business Showcase for a couple of hours then I'm going to try test the local 'walk ins welcome' theory again for getting a mani/pedi.
Thank you for the very kind compliments on my journal yesterday. To answer some of your questions: Yes, I mainly paint with acrylic although I have used oil a couple of times and loved how it took so long to dry I could go back for days and change things. No, I've never sold any of my paintings nor would I even know how to price one. I still suffer from the 'oh, they're just complimenting and patronizing me because they love me' syndrome because I've been told I should (sell)IRL and never took it serious.
If I did ((heaven help me with my fledgling confidence)) I would need to sell it 'in person' only as the photograph seemed to enhance things that aren't evident in person. After uploading the four I did yesterday (and there are about 25 or so more but I won't inundate you with those all at one time) I forwarded the "Smoke on the Water" to Blondie with a LOL email. The photograph gave it a look of brightness and yellow just not evident in person. Maybe I need to install those 'gallery spotlights' over each of them here in the home. Maybe my Nikon just makes me look more talented than I really am; I should take a selfie and see if it makes me look 20 years younger and pounds lighter, LOL.
ATF yesterday: spot on. Tuna with mayo for lunch and as I sat eating it I thought 'oh, my gosh.. this is so delicious... how long has it been since I added mayo to tuna? I want more!' but I did make myself wait and my brain caught up with my mouth, my hunger was satisfied and I had a sane and proud afternoon.
So sane in fact that I had an interesting thought during my therapy yesterday. I've decided I'm going to stop referring to it as a massage as I'm healing right now. Healing as grief works it's way out of my heart; as the true aches and pains from years of neglect are addressed; and as I continue to learn the importance of placing myself first. I'll resume the 'M' word once the appointment upgrades from necessary to luxury.
Anyway, I was vegging on the table when it occurred to me, "Hey... I'm not hungry!". I always go for my weekly therapy in the afternoon and struggle constantly to steer my traveling thoughts away from food and drooling all over the face rest.
So maybe the mayo was that 'extra' kick of fat mixed with the protein of the tuna to 'hold me' the way it did in the past. I'm not sure why I abandoned it; probably because I felt it was too much considering I'd switched to tuna WITH oil instead of water. I finally picked up some in water last night and will see if mixing it with mayo brings back my bullet proof lunch. My nails are definitely benefitting from the protein.
I needed water so I went to the big store and always love putting the 6 cases in the cart first to push all over the store - another version of my 'DIY exercise'. Interesting to think, whenever I have to plant my feet firm and push the cart harder especially turning corners, I lost almost that much weight off my own body but didn't have wheels. I was getting close though. (eyeing the scooters)
As I unloaded the car I mused how two years ago I rarely went to the grocery, period. Naturally I didn't WALK to the neighborhood market as I do now - I would lose my breath, back would ache, and be exhausted just to get up the block. Most of the pantry staples were purchased online in bulk and for everything else I paid Blondie's crew to shop and unload it for me. I just couldn't do it with all that extra weight. I could neither walk that long around the store, even leaning on the cart, nor haul more than a couple of bags in without thinking my heart would explode.
It still could. I'm not being smug. I know to keep an eye on my lab levels and continue to think about what I'm choosing to nourish my body these days. But I pray my gratitude every day that I was given one more chance, one more spark of inspiration, one more day to try to improve my life.
Wrapping up. Dinner was oven baked chicken with BBQ sauce. Bedtime snack of cottage cheese, chia seeds and blueberries. And .. drumroll... can I get a 'heck yeah' here: No Midnight Munching. That's two in a row. Am going for a hat trick (third) tonight. Will report back in the morning.
Thank you for stopping in the visit with me. Hope you're having a wonderful first day of Spring wherever you are today.
Bella
Diet Calendar Entries for 20 March 2014:
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2983 kcal
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Fat: 164.36g | Prot: 161.14g | Carb: 236.41g.
Breakfast: Laughing Cow Mini Babybel Original Cheese, Emerald Raw Almonds, Whole Milk, Spectrum Organic Virgin Coconut Oil, Coffee-Mate Sugar Free Hazelnut Liquid Coffee Creamer. Lunch: Olive Oil, La Preferida Chick Peas (Garbanzos), Market Pantry Sugar Cookies with Icing, Chicken Thigh, Chicken Wing, Chocolate Chip Cookie, Cheese Pizza, Tuna in Water (Canned), Hellmann's Mayonnaise with Extra Virgin Olive Oil. Snacks/Other: Trail Mix, Nature Valley Crunchy Granola Bars - Oats 'N Honey, Bob's Red Mill Chia Seed, Cottage Cheese, Schwan's Whole Blueberries. more...
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Heck Yeah! WTG! (ps ATE = All things exercise) Good luck tonight, will be waiting for your report!
20 Mar 14 by member: Lynn1958
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Love your journal. And here's to the hat trick. I love how you use every advantage to get an edge - ie loading the heavy water into the cart first to give yourself a little exercise as you push round the store. Excellent.
20 Mar 14 by member: sarahsmum
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Bella you are amazing. HECK YEAH!!!!! I am pretty darned proud of you! :)
20 Mar 14 by member: Mom2Boxers
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You are so stinkin modest! They were beautiful, we loved them because we loved them and that's that. (Paintings of course) I'm sure your Nikon did not trick us into thinking you were talented. If that were the case I would be taking pictures of my stick person mona lisa drawings and selling them on ebay for big bucks. Maybe I'll give it a try, but I'm guessing it will be another failed get rich quick scheme. :-) Sooo proud of you for the kickass food choices, you are on a roll. Don't doubt your ability to maintain that roll. I often remember things I couldn't do previously. Christmas shopping was a big deal for me this year because in previous years I would always get winded in the mall, and my feet would ache. Now I could shop for days, which may not be a good thing? lol I guess that depends on who you ask. I must dash off now, duty calls. Have a wonderful afternoon Bella!!
20 Mar 14 by member: Annabelle3117
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Yes, please set aside any modesty when it comes to your talent. I would by an original in a minute (I think a bidding war may be starting soon, so maybe I should down play how much I like them, lol). Your artwork is lovely and should be properly show cased. Let us know when you open the art gallery. Yippee for not having the night time snack. It’s a crazy habit that I have too but I realize I was just doing it to pass time and it was starting to add up fast. And lastly, I may need to know the exact magical Nikon camera that you have. In April I will be pressured to attend this event where there will be a lot of picture taking and one of the ladies to be photographed along with little ole me is a model. I’m almost 5ft, will the camera add height too? I’ve started stretch routines already so the camera will not have to do all of the work. :)
20 Mar 14 by member: ChicaLean
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Hey! It is interesting to be reminded about how we use to deal with shopping, stairs and the like. Now we have a new vigor to prove we have won the hard fight. We might have more rounds to go but we have won the last few! So there! Congrats on the no snacking at night for twice now!
20 Mar 14 by member: Neptunebch
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No midnight snacking, mindful eating & extra unintended exercise... What could be a better combination... Well, the added therapy, of course! Xoxox
20 Mar 14 by member: Ruhu
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Superb! ATL (all things life!)! I've yet to encounter an artist who though their art was worthy. Yours are beautiful and I'm certain it is not simply the camera tricking us.
20 Mar 14 by member: madaboutmoose
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Bella don't sell your self short...you are very talented...great job on eating good..
Have a great day...:O)
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Interesting how the mayo seems to be the missing piece to satisfying your hunger puzzle. I've long been an advocate for keeping some fat in my diet, though, and shunning the low fat versions of most things because they just don't do anything for me. I'd rather have less of something with real taste and texture than oodles of something stripped of all enjoyment. I think you would be surprised at how much you can sell original art for, especially if it's framed. I have been to a few local art shows and a medium sized framed painting is usually priced at several hundred dollars. I know the frames can be pricy on their own so that adds to the deal but the artists charge a good penny for their works, even though they are unknown. Even if you were to sell your paintings unframed, I am sure you could get at least $200 or more, depending on the size. But it depends on where you market them, too, I suppose. Check out a local art show and get a feel for what the market will bear in your area.
21 Mar 14 by member: evelyn64
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