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Monday again, and I for one am glad to get back to my weekday routine. Last night was again more of a struggle, and I succumbed to my "safe" treats (dark chocolate, fruit, nuts & coconut) but ate more than I was truly hungry for. Again, I could feel it starting as we were finishing dinner out (DH, MIL & me) which I was trying to eat mindfully but also ate more than I truly needed. I tried breathing through it, but to no avail & hit the pantry when we got home. Of course, in hindsight, the thing to do would have been to make a cup of tea and/or go to bed for the night. So, I'm being curious about what triggered it, and what I can do differently next time. One struggle at a time, right? The important thing is to get right back on my healthy eating & living track today, and focus on just this one day.
Today, I have a tennis match at 11 & meet with my therapist at 2:30. I'll speak with her about my recent victories on my travels & detours since. I also want to talk about my slow, but steady weight increase & how its impacting my mood. it is a downer for me -- when I get on the scale (which I'm more & more eager to avoid all together), when I look in the mirror & when I try on my clothes to see which still fit ok. There's a part of me that asks if its just part of the aging/menopause process, part of living healthier & mindfully in a way that I can do long-term, or a cop out from eating in a way to keep my weight where its been for many years now (closer to 120 than the 125 i'm at now). Wonder if I pay her enough to sort all that out?!?
Well that's my story for today & I'm sticking to it, but starting in prayer --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
As I'm extra vigilant to get right back on track for this one day and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, log, post, journal, sit with and/or express my way. I'm soooooo very grateful for each of you, my family & IRL friends, warming temps in the northeast :), and having the health & wealth to live this life I love. xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 27 January 2014:
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1080 kcal
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Fat: 41.50g | Prot: 70.00g | Carb: 115.00g.
Breakfast: Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, IdealShape Milk Chocolate Meal Replacement Shake. Lunch: IdealShape Vanilla Meal Replacement Shake, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk. Dinner: The Chia Co Chia Pod Blueberry, Stew Leonard's Healthy Eggplant Tomato Bisque. Snacks/Other: Evolve Greek Kefir, Raw Green Smoothie. more...
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1998 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Tennis - 1 hour and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours and 30 minutes. more...
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