strawberry1972's Journal, 12 January 2009

Well, I went for a kick a** long walk yesterday through town and through the woods to visit my mom (who is deceased) at the cemetary yesterday.

I took my boyfriend with me as he is always a wonderful support when I go there. He was also present when my mom passed away and he was very supportive through the funeral and even afterwards when I needed a hysterectomy only two weeks after she died.

I have begun to get over the anger stage of her dying now. I feel I am closer to acceptance, but I am not yet totally at peace with it all. I know I will be but that will take time.

As for the rest of my life, I feel I have no worries as I feel that a job will become available to me right away and I am looking forward to that happenning because I could really use a job right about now to get me out of the house and making more money than I ever dreamed. I don't care if it's working at the mine right now and in a warehouse. If I can at least get a few thousand dollars saved in the next couple of years, I could move from here or travel and that would mean a lot to me since I would really truly love a career in writing in the USA somewhere.....

Any way, these dreams will become a reality. I just have to believe in myself enough to make it happen:)

164.0 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 24.0 lb.    Diet followed N/A.