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Once again I'm recording my food in the middle of the night!!! But I just got off work, so its appropriate for me!!
I had something a little disheartening happen at work tonight. When I started this job three months ago, I started with another girl. She was cute, petite......thin. She didn't make it. She got fired about 6 weeks into the job. Tonight I heard a customer ask the owner why she got rid of the "thin girl" and kept the "big one". I'm sure they didn't think I heard. But it really hurt. However, I AM big. And I certainly am a lot bigger than that other woman was. The person said it in such a "matter of fact" way that it seemed like it was so natural. And there's a part of me that says he was just stating the obvious....still...its not what I want to hear. And it certainly is not what I want to be.
I don't want to be the "big girl". I don't want people to think of me in terms of size. I want them to notice my thick hair, my silly laugh, my smile, my smart-ass comments, my positive attitude or my fabulous butt. I don't want to be the "big girl" anymore.
I hope tomorrow is a good weigh in. I need it. Don't we all?
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1 cheese stick = 1C
2 cups of coffee w/hc = 0C
1 salad from McD's with grilled chicken and dressing = 8C
2 cups of taco salad with lettuce, taco meat, tomatoes, onions, sour cream and salsa = 10C
1 few cashews = 3C
2 diet sodas = 2C
TOTAL = 24C
Just can't seem to stay under that 20 mark!!! But I'm close!!
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