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I wanted to be 215 by the start of month 3. I had been shooting for Oct. 1st. But, I realized today that I didn't start up until August 5th. So technically, my third month doesn't start until October 5th. I dropped the goal to 219 to be more reasonable. I am sooo close. It feels great. I'm not starving myself. Rather, I'm trying to turn my body into a highly efficient fat burning machine. I was a little short last night on getting my 15 miles in this week. I was short 1.5 miles. Ehh...I will make up for it this week. Yesterday I put in 6 miles...4 of which occurred in the pouring rain. Over the weekend, a guy I work with on occasion sent me a text saying he saw some photographs of me taken back in March of 2012. He went on to say "You've lost a shit ton of weight. I didn't even recognize you." Really, I haven't lost that much weight since March of 2012. I got to my highest weight on August 5, 2013. That was my turning point. That is the date from which I measure my progress in living a healthy life. My start date on fatsecret is off since I did not click to start over even though I have a history of starting, stopping and restarting. In any event, the comment was the first anyone (aside from my husband) has made about me losing weight. My husband claims that everyone notices, but people are too intimidated to say anything for fear I may take it wrong. Eh. I dunno. I'm taking the "shit ton of weight" comment as a compliment. It may be a little crude. But, I do know that I have slimmed down. I am finally seeing it in my clothes. Over the weekend, I purchased a bikini on a clearance rack from Old Navy. It was $1.99. Who can pass that up, right? I got home thinking that I would just work towards fitting in the bikini. I tried it on anyway. It fit. Granted, I need to definitely tone my abs. But, I can say that when I looked in the mirror I was not totally disgusted with what I saw. A tan, some crunches and another 20 pounds and I might even have enough body confidence to wear it on the cruise this winter. Ahh...yes, the cruise. I daydream about it constantly. But, I've noticed a shift in my thinking. Before, I would have been daydreaming about all the food I was going to consume. But, this time, I found myself marveling at the spa and gym facilities. I have decided to cough up the extra $149 for a weekly spa pass so that I can indulge in the extra spa amenities. I am taking the rest of my immediate family on this cruise with me to include my parents, brother and his fiance, my teenagers, and of course my husband. I know my mom will want me to spend a good deal of time with her during the cruise. I will take a break from fatsecret that week. In part, because I don't want to pay for the internet package. But, I am going to try to eat reasonably (not like a fool). I know I will blow my ordinary caloric intake. But, I will stick to water and unsweetened tea on board. Plus I am hoping that with the wonderful spa and gym facilities, I will have a chance to increase my exercise. I am looking forward to long morning workouts followed by a steam room and whirlpool to sooth sore muscles. I think I am likely going to have to get my workouts done in the mornings so that the rest of the day I can be present with mom. My parents have been very good to me. I wanted to reward them with something I thought they would enjoy. So, I picked a family cruise. They like to eat though. My mom especially enjoys eating. My husband has made clear that although he is dieting and has almost reached his goal weight, he intends to eat like a complete idiot. More power to him.... I just am very fearful that if I stop, even temporarily, maintaining good choices that I will never return to it and the weight will pile back on just like it has my entire life. I know they offer spa cuisine for dinners. Frankly none of that ever appealed to me. I want to eat the same indulgent food for which cruises are known. But, I am going to try to pay attention to my signals that I am full. And, for safe measure double my exercise output. If you cannot tell, I am scared. It is still several months off. I think to myself that I will surely have made even more progress by the time I leave for the cruise. I just do not want to blow it all. So, I am focusing on the spa. Maybe I can get one of those mini-facelifts or something to indulge in rather than food. We will see. I have three months.
Tonight, I have started dinner early so it would not cut into my workout time. I've noticed the few times when I have missed my walk this week it has been when I am stuck in the kitchen making dinner for everyone. I had to make things a little easier for me so that I can prioritize my workout. So, I have a boston butt pork in the crockpot. It has been marinating in a dry smoke rub for two days. Tonight we will have BBQ. Of course, I am limiting myself to about 3 ounces with a bun. I need to figure out a vegetable to put with it. Green beans are becoming boring. I could fix corn, but I don't know that I want to intake a double dose of carbs between the bun and the corn. Although it would be good paired together. And, it has to be better than potato chips.
I am going to quit rambling for today. I have to go flat iron my hair so I can get off to work. Have a wonderful day.
Diet Calendar Entries for 30 September 2013:
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967 kcal
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Fat: 24.96g | Prot: 43.72g | Carb: 146.52g.
Breakfast: Milk (Nonfat), General Mills Chocolate Cheerios. Lunch: Earth's Pride Organics Baby-Cut Carrots, Hidden Valley Fat Free Ranch Dressing, Gulden's Spicy Brown Mustard, Grapes, Private Selection Hand Crafted Provolone Cheese, Private Selection Home Style Slow Roasted Beef Pastrami, EarthGrains 35 Calorie White Bread. Dinner: Bull's Eye Original BBQ Sauce, Gatorade G2 Perform 02 - Lemon-Lime, Cub Foods Hamburger Buns, Rose Smoked Boneless Pork Shoulder Butt. Snacks/Other: Reichel Foods Sliced Apples & Caramel Dippin' Stix. more...
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2605 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 1 hour and 5 minutes, Sleeping - 22 hours and 55 minutes. more...
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