jaime30024's Journal, 05 September 2013

Okay so back into Onederland. It is 16 days until the wedding and I think I said I wanted to try to make it to at least 197. I am working at it. One thing I can tell with all of the running and the biking I think my body has changed some. I think I have fewer inches now than I did at 193...I don't know it could be in my head. Either way I will keep at it.

Okay not doing GREAT at cutting out dairy and processed foods for a week. However, maybe that is what is jumping things...I don't know. I did not have my heavy whipping cream in coffee yesterday or my cream cheese with breakfast. However, I did have mayonnaise (that is processed) and I did have a piece of bacon (processed) and I did have some pork skins so I am still not great. However, my carbs are low so I am not going to complain. Not sure if butter counts as processed. I wonder if Amish butter would count...since it is more along the lines of fresh...not sure. Suggestions are welcome my FS buddies.

I do know that I do not think I could forgo cheese forever. I added the cream cheese in the morning with my breakfast back when I was stalling and it moved the scale. Now it looks like taking it out is going to mix it up again and maybe move the scale..crazy

So on to the erribly sad news...we lost one of our chihuahua's yesterday. I have seen a badger in our back yard once...very mean and under a trailer...it was trying to attack the pipe that I was using to prod it. Don't ask me how it got into our fenced yard, but anyway....I don't know if that is what got her. All I know is that they were outside and I called them to come eat and Thelma didn't come and Lucy kept coming halfway to me and walking back to the backyard again; like she was trying to get me to come back there. I walked back there and found Thelma. Lucy had been standing watch over her. I cannot imagine Lucy doing that to Thelma and especially the way she would not leave her back there alone. I cannot tell my daughter right now as she only has a month left in school. She should be home for a visit after that and I will let her know. All of the dogs were somber last night, and you could tell that they knew she was gone. Okay so that is enough of that...to think about it or talk about it too much makes me sick. That is why I had such sketchy dinner last night. I think Lucy has been the most sad as Thelma would clean her face like she was her baby. I was trying to eat something that I could keep down last night and had a difficult time. It breaks my heart and last night when they went outside Lucy was back there to the back fence sniffing around everywhere like she was trying to track something. So now I have to keep an eye out for anything in the yard and also to make sure that maybe Lucy didn't do it accidentally...although after 3-1/2 years I find it hard to believe, but I still have to be aware as heavy as it makes my heart.

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1078 kcal

Fat: 86.51g | Prot: 47.80g | Carb: 26.09g.   Breakfast: John Morrell Lower Sodium Bacon, Boiled Egg, Fred Meyer Real Mayonnaise. Lunch: Bacon Grease, Boiled Egg, Fred Meyer Real Mayonnaise, Cabbage. Dinner: Kirkwood Garlic Chicken. Snacks/Other: Walden Farms Calorie Free Caramel Syrup, LouAna Pure Coconut Oil, Green Mountain Coffee French Vanilla Iced Coffee K-Cup, Challenge Whipped Butter, Great Value Apple Cider Vinegar, Realime 100% Lime Juice. more...