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I really blew it yesterday. Everything was happening. I was offered a new job, my ex moved out, and I was under pressure to write the rest of the weekly stories for the newspaper on time.
I got a great review this morning from my editor. I have thought through what I will be doing for the new job...take it a it comes, and I will continue to write for the newspaper should he want me to. I love to write for the paper. It is my passion. I am truy in my element when I am reporting.
All these things were happening when my ex was trying to move his things out last night. I felt terrible that I hadn't booked the day off to just help him out emotionally. I still love and care for him. I always will. He is my daughter's father and he will always be an important part of my life.
But that is how it has to be. We are better off as friends. Living in the same household and trying to make a go of a relationship that is just not developing into an understanding because both parties just don't GET it, will lead to nowhere...I was afraid of that....
From this moment forward, I am going GUNG-HO with my diet. No mroe setbacks. I have many focus points in the next several weeks and months of my life, and I have to make sure that I STAY focused. But the one thing I know for sure is-I KNOW I CAN DO IT.
I have come this far-lost 80 pounds in a year and a half-I need to get the last 30 pounds off. It will mean dedication, perseverance, challenges, and celebrations. And I am all for it. No more struggling. Just DO IT!
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