tina10915's Journal, 01 January 2013

Welcome and good luck on your journey! You can do this! 

Hey, Tina, I sent you a buddy request. We can do this, THIS year! Journal writing is a really good way to process and learn about yourself. At times in my life that were hard, I did Julia Cameron's "AM pages" - where you commit to writing 3 pages longhand each and every morning even if you have nothing to write. Some days I wrote "I have nothing to write..." for a full page, and then wham, some emotional truths would pour out. Really really useful. 

Elizabeth, I can see writing 3 pages but can't do longhand. I have no time in a day and this allows me to keep everything in one spot. I like the idea of journal writing. It is a large leap for me because I never wanted anyone to know what I was going through. Felt like I was the only one. Now I talk about it every day, write in my journal, document my food intake and do all the research. I feel like I have been on the computer non stop for 5 days now. Today I am going to do a little bit of house cleaning and try to start 2013 off with a big bang!! Thanks for the response. I am always ready for a new buddy!! 

How is your first day going? I think of food ALL the time also, so I know what your going through and yes, it IS for sure one minute at a time or one hour at a time. IF it were one day at a time there would be a lot more people succeeding at this weight loss thing I think. Your doing Adkins? Have you done Adkins before? Whenever I see someone on Adkins I think "they are truly brave people" lol I could never in a million years do it. I love my carbs WAY to much which is why I am the way I am *sigh* but that is also the reason we choose a low carb/high carb diet, I really needed to limit my carbs A LOT more then what I did before. I hope that this week goes great for you! I look forward to seeing how you do and watch that weight fall off :D GOOD LUCK!!!  

Kildayan, Not so good. I am hungry and tired and I just want to eat everything in the house, but I didn't. I had some turkey with mayo earlier. I don't think the turkey was good anymore. *sigh* so moving on to something else. Going to have eggs or breakfast with cheese and bacon. That will be easy. Lunch, not sure. Got to pack it up tonight so I don't have to try and do everything in the morning. I knew this would be hard but I didn't know it would be this time consuming. I just keep telling myself that I am worth it. I have a book that I am reading for this kind of diet so I will be in better spirits tomorrow. How was your New Years eve?? I took a much needed nap after work and then didn't go to bed until late. Didn't watch the ball drop but I didn't really want to anyway. Okay now I am rambling. Sorry. I hope you guys have a great week!! I am going to do laundry~ 

Our New Years Eve was quiet. My little guy decided to stay at Grandmas next door so we watched a movie. We decided to have a 1/2 bag of popcorn each with our sparkling grape juice right after new year so we just added it to breakfast this morning so it's counted for the week. Sorry your day isn't going so well :( The first few days are always the hardest though. You will do just fine! And if this particular diet doesn't work for you just try something else. Of course it will take some time to get used to the change though. I hope that tomorrow is a MUCH better day for you. We find that packing our foods is the ONLY way to do it. It does take a while to weigh everything and pack it up though. But it's all worth it :D Hang in there! Were here for you :D If you have a phone and can text let me know if you want my number. We can keep each other motivated if we run into problems at work :D  

614-378-9462. Any time! Great idea!! 

Tina - I still think about food every day ~ but it's more of 'what's the next good healthy thing to find to try so I have a huge database of foods that are good for me for the rest of my life' type quest. I am so glad we have the journal capability here at FS because I could never longhand the journals I do here. My hand cramps just writing a check - maybe I just don't like spending money?? No.. that isn't it! Anyway, I've written so much here about struggling and thinking and working through decades of bad mental commentaries that run and everyone has been very kind and supportive. I do know the 'feels like I haven't left the computer' for days feeling but it's better than 'feels like I spent the whole night in the fridge, should just climb on in and save the lightbulb' feeling. Keep up the good work ~ we'll get there with the help of our friends.