FullaBella's Journal, 07 December 2012

Holy Samsonite Batman! I started packing for my weekend away this morning and am as excited as a five year old on Christmas Eve! Six hours and counting down to BLAST OFF! While my destination is only an hour drive away (( I never get to go very far anymore because of MH's health issues)) it may as well be the MOON!

Of course, there are the predeparture errands to fulfill too:

*All of MH's Rx's filled and available and accessible so that even my idiot of a son in law can find them when necessary? Check.

*Voicemail recording indicating why our store is uncharacteristically closed on Saturday? Check.

*Toilet Paper holder changed with fresh new roll as I'm the only person who seems to know how to do that? Check.

So, wanna to lose 10lbs of jiggly belly fat in one day?? While it isn't a true weight loss the 'Girlfriend Tank' by 'Yummie Tummie' will make you look like you just lost 10lbs. Or at least, it did for me.

I ordered it online last week by miraculous error - I thought I was just ordering a regular but over priced tank-top. (They're $55 but worth every cent!) Here in The Biodome (MH's name for our home because we strive to limit any risky infections from the outside) the temperature is kept at a bone chilling shivering 68 degrees - and that's AIR CONDITIONING in DECEMBER, not heat. Because of his COPD he needs the room cooler to help his breathing even though he too sits covered in a heated throw.

So along with the little space heater beside my desk in the shop, I have to dress in layers usually comprised of a tank top, a huge bulky sweater and a 'bigshirt' as a jacket. That way when I forget that it's actually still 80 degrees out (some days) and catch myself outside of The Biodome for an errand, I can remove the bulky sweater and just wear the tank & bigshirt before I melt into a puddle or get arrested for dressing like a lunatic.

Yes, Congress, I said lunatic. So there.

Anyhooo.... I thought it was just a regular tank but it's somewhere in between a comfortable camisole and one of those tight binding kidney crushing body shapers.

It came in this week and while I have only lost 2lbs this week (YAY) I've had at least six people (and these are folks who see me on a regular basis weekly suddenly comment 'Wow! You've lost a lot of Weight! You look GREAT' And their eyes immediately go to my waistline - or at least - the one now created by Yummie Tummie.

I'm thinking 'uh... okay, yes I have and thank you...' but then I finally decided after about the sixth 'wow' I would share my Yummie Tummie Secret with my FS friends. I bought mine online at Roamans just in case you're interested. All I can say is 'Never Underestimate the Power of Good Underwear'.

Okay, informercial over, Time for a necessary Journal Vent.

While it's flattering I suppose to finally have the weight loss noticed it's also a burden I was trying to avoid for as long as possible.

Let me explain. While I come HERE and post my little celebrations with my like minded friends, I really do NOT want my weight loss to become the opening topic of every freaking conversation in real life because it has, in the past, become a trap for me and as I repeat so often here, I am striving to avoid the traps that led to my past four weightloss failures.

So when people asked me this week 'how much have you lost?' my answer was and will continue to be 'not nearly as much as I gained.'

While I celebrate every pound lost HERE, I will NOT reveal that number in real life because I've learned from the past every subsequent conversation would then begin with 'So how much have you lost NOW?'

Interest is great, mind you, but give me a flipping break. These were people who saw me and asked the same question just THE DAY BEFORE as if in ONE 24 hour period I'm supposed to have a whole new number! And WE all know HERE it there may be a change in 24 hours and then there may not be a change for a week!

But when I would say 'uhmm.... no more just yet BUT it's only been one day since you last asked' I would then become the recipient of the most ridiculous look of pity and disappointment delivered with the most pathetic faux encouragement of 'Uh, well, uh... that's ok.... you will plateau, don't give up... keep up the hard work....'

Seriously... as if *I* were letting 'them' down because *I* didn't have 'progress' to report. They wanted to HiJACK my hard work. I'm sure there's something wrong with me because of how I feel about that but for now my position is 'been there, done that, am NOT going back there.'

Anyway, the only people I consider TRULY interested in the REAL number right now are my Grandsons. This past Summer prior to my 8/25 start day of this journey, I took them to one of those 'Go-Kart' places. They wanted me to race with them but at nearly 300lbs I just couldn't see myself sinking down into one of those carts.

Well, I could see it. I could also see my behind dragging on the asphalt and could envision the crane or forklift that would be needed to get me OUT.

Now, I'm not saying ALL people who weigh 300lbs are fat and immobile - some are muscular and athletic. But that wasn't me. At that time in my life I got winded just getting out of a recliner.

So I told them when I lost 100lbs I was going to challenge them to the Nana-Appolis500. I'll probably still outweigh them but what I lack in lightness I hope to make up in driving experience. I watched them spin out way too many times on the curves. I think I can take 'em!

As always, thank you for reading.

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1131 kcal

Fat: 29.77g | Prot: 67.24g | Carb: 150.03g.   Breakfast: Dannon Light & Fit Greek, Creamer, Flax Seed, Schwans Blueberries, Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal, Coffee, Coconut Oil. Lunch: Schwans Oven Roasted Chicken, Schwans Tuscan Soup. Dinner: Coffee, Broccoli, Pico, Cucumber, Crisps, Banana, Peperoncini, Hormel Turkey, 2X Protein Greek Yogurt - Honey Vanilla, Tomatos. more...

2684 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Driving - 1 hour, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 2 hours, Sleeping - 21 hours. more...