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Day 4 of my AdvoCare herbal cleanse. I feel good, and I've been exercising almost everyday this week. My weight last week was 213, which is still terrible, but it went down to 210 yesterday. I hope that I keep going down because I'm not doing so well at Legion Fitness.
Whenever I run at Legion Fitness, I'm always last. It's a terrible feeling not being able to keep up, but I keep telling myself I'll get faster... and I can only get faster if I decrease in weight and continue to run.
Angel's back! She started Saturday bootcamps two weeks ago, and I looked around at all the people who used to train with her... and we all got chunky. It was so sad. When she told us to jog, I was first. It's like everyone is starting over, and I'm just a little bit ahead, just a tad.
She said, "Wherever you are right now, that's it. It's OK. Get your head right." I'm trying really hard to get my head right like she told us, but I keep thinking how badly I need to get better at running. I feel like a car that's revving up, going in no particular path but a deepening circle: all frustration and fury all balled up in my gut. I just want to lose weight, that's all. And I want to stop eating badly, and I want to continue working out. I guess the question is, how bad do I want it?
Diet Calendar Entry for 25 October 2012:
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735 kcal
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Fat: 14.00g | Prot: 71.00g | Carb: 88.00g.
Breakfast: Spark, Water (Bottled), advocare meal replacement. Lunch: water, advocare meal replacement. Dinner: shredded lettuce, bottled water, spicy black bean burger. more...
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