peeperjj's Journal, 03 January 2019

Less than 300 kcal! Two bowls of homemade chicken and noodle soup with a hot turkey and cheese sandwich on wheat bread. It’s one of those days I’m constantly hungry and wanting to snack so... lighter calorie meals because I know I’ll break down and eat a big snack later. I’ve been trying to keep it at bay with a runt or gobstopper every so often and a couple pieces of fudge. On my 3rd or 4th bottle of water. I went through and finished all the partial bottles so I’m not exactly sure. 9 empties sitting beside me from yesterday and today lol. Some where full to begin with. Have 1/2 of one left from dinner. Water isn’t helping either because every time I drink I want to eat. However this would normally be my ‘time’ if I hadn’t had a hysterectomy so I’m guessing that plays a part. It’s been the same the last few months after I thought to figure that stuff out. Not to mention the antibiotics. And the fact that it’s cold and when it gets below 0 with ice rain and snow I tend to want to eat more. Took down the tree and Christmas decorations to keep busy and not eat. I’ve been checking Facebook hourly. Playing online games. Several hands of phase 10 with the family (we do this every home meal as a good family time). Went through a pack of smokes already. My vision is so blurry I can’t read what I’m typing (sry for any typos) because Ive looked at screens so much today. It does this mid afternoon most days anyway. Maybe it would’ve been better just to eat the 3000 calorie fudge :/.