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Striving for a semblance of balance and control
More than half of my day was spent going through grunt-work at work, and in the back of my mind there was a free-floating anxiety, possibly due to several factors, namely, 1)some of the big projects to finish at work, and I need to get them moving, and I'm feeling somewhat daunted, 2) leaving me to waste more time, and then feeling more stressed with every minute wasted, and 3)I'm worried that maybe I'm going to mess up my health through these varying experiments I'm undertaking regularly, e.g., upping the protein amounts and reducing the carbs, even though I know it can't be as bad as some of the junk I've been putting in my body for a while, and 4) getting annoyed that I can't figure out a workable pattern to make my body adapt and adjust to..., and 5) getting annoyed with myself generally that I seem to be varying from day-to-day...why can't I feel on top of things on a more consistent basis?!
As a result, 5 pm rolled around, and I just decided to call it quits and head home. Came home and went for my day 3 of c2k run, and in course of the run, I started to get more absorbed in the activity, and as a result, started to feel less anxious. Sweated quite a bit, and the last two runs were relatively harder (but I'd also upped the ante, by increasing the incline to 3.5, and speed to 4.7), so yeah, it was hard, but didn't seem unsurmountable today. Today ends week 1 of the program, and I did wonder about how I'm going to manage the increased pace that week 2 will bring--but then I checked that negative thought, and just decided to have faith in the program, and let it take care of itself when I'm on the treadmill next. ok, besides that, did some weights (biceps), thus, finishing my 40 mins for today.
Another down-turns-to-up event of the day was the fact that I packed my lunch bag but forgot to take it with me!! That threw me for a loop a little, as I didn't have my snacks to count on, although lunch was not supposedly such a problem, as I was able to find a big salad of romaine, walnuts, and dried cranberries. However, the problem was that the nuts and dried, sugar-loaded 'berries took up a lot of calories, and didn't fill me up as much, so around 3 pm or so, I started to feel the munchies--for the first time in a long while! I went to get another coffee and possibly a granola bar. However, thanks to the new stuff I'm learning about labels, I saw that there were a lot of carbs, and some other chemicals that I really didn't need, so I told myself to just have the coffee and some water, and see how I feel after that. And it worked! I was able to stall the hunger until after my workout.
So after the workout, I came home and made a big salad, had the low-point lentil soup from yesterday's marathon cooking, and some leftover green beans/walnut salad. All in all, pretty low pointage. I think I'll still have a protein mix.
I'm gonna get done here and get to some focussed writing---have to beat a midnight deadline! And absolutely HAVE to wake up at 6 am (didn't happen today, but no ifs-ands-or buts tomorrow).
Meals of the day:
Breakfast: Go lean kashi cereal and 1/2 cup skim milk (3)
Snack: 2 cups coffee (2)
1 apple (1)
Lunch: Romaine salad with walnuts (5) and cranberries (3), and newman's lite walnut/rasberry dressing (2)
Dinner: small piece part-skim mozz (1),
salad with fat free ranch (1), croutons (1) and lots of veggies
Green beans with walnuts and little bit of oil (2)
Lentil soup (2)
Protein mix with skim milk (3)
Total points: 26
Activity: 30 mins of c2k run (day 3, week 1), 235 K burned, 3.5 incline, 4.4/4.7 speed
10 mins: weight lifting: biceps 3 sets of 12 pounds
Diet Calendar Entry for 31 March 2008:
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629 kcal
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Fat: 23.97g | Prot: 22.23g | Carb: 87.93g.
Breakfast: skim milk. Lunch: light dressing, dried cranberries, walnuts, romaine. more...
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