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I’m feeling really down and discouraged. I normally don’t feel like this but today is way 2 much! I haven’t stuck with my goals, I can’t even last one day on my diet without screwing something up. It’s very hard sticking to a plan with 3 children (infant, toddler, teen), a husband, and me not having the discipline on my food choices!
I feel like a rollercoaster, one minute I want to diet and exercise, next minute I am watching Jennifer Hudson and her weight watchers commercial, then I see a Nutrisystem ad online. I say hmmmm maybe I should try this or that. What is going on? I have tried low carb. for a couple a days but I always screw it up it!
Today I looked at my coworker who had gastro surgery 10 months ago and she is so thin! I hadn’t seen her in about 2 months. I really feel jealous, am I wrong for feeling this way? She looks so beautiful in her thin figure! But…………there is always a but, I feel she doesn’t have to work as hard I am because she had surgery and I am not going to do that.
Sorry for all the rambling, typos and nonsense (if anyone is reading this), this is a journal and I am just letting “it” know how I feel……..lol. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I am back and trying again! 10:30 am May, 24, 2010
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