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Finally Friday!! Whew, I'm tired!! It has been a very busy week for me at work and I'm about brain fried!! No special plans for the weekend but hopefully we can find something fun to do. My journey of course continues ... as it will for the REST OF MY LIFE!!!
I've been hungrier lately and working hard to respect my hunger and feed it healthily. Being hungry doesn't worry me ... I think it is a good sign that my body is burning fuel and adjusting. I do notice that I take a bite of this or that and I'm paying close attention to when I do that so I don't absent mindedly start to pack in calories that I think are "invisible" and don't really count. We all know calories do indeed count. I fought that concept for many a year.
Today, on our drive to work, mom and I talked about the differences we notice in our bodies. For me I notice I have more "spring in my step." Getting down on the floor and back up is much easier and each time I do it I am surprised still. Since I work with children birth to three years old I spend a lot of time on the floor. I can feel my hip bones, my tail bone, my back bone. Some chairs are actually uncomfortable ... not so much padding!! LOL!! I have collar bones!!! Who knew???? I have ribs!!!!
Emotionally I feel pretty calm this week. Yes I am still weighing daily and my weight fluctuates pretty much every day but it doesn't seem to perturb me like it used to. I no longer interpret an "up" fluctuation on Frank as proof that I will be fat forever and that I am doing something "wrong." Vacation was a very important lesson for me. All of you who suggested I put in the numbers were absolutely CORRECT. Keeping myself honest is important. I still experience "feeling fat" at times and certainly my internal body image has not shifted yet but it is in flux. I imagine that for the rest of my life I will have days or moments when I "feel fat."
And so ... together ... and individually we continue our journeys. What we eat is a big part of how "big" we are. What we tell ourselves also has significant impact on not only our size but our readiness to make change. Change certainly isn't easy, even when it is a positive change. Okay ... off to work so I can go HOME!!!
Diet Calendar Entries for 05 June 2009:
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1364 kcal
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Fat: 23.56g | Prot: 78.05g | Carb: 203.20g.
Breakfast: medifast cocoa, water. Lunch: Yoplait Light Thick & Creamy Key Lime, pineapple tidbits, 2% cottage cheese, Orowheat Light, deli turkey slices, tomato slices. Dinner: Heineken Light Beer, Lean Cuisine French Bread Pizza, perrier. Snacks/Other: special K honey nut bar, Fuze, apple, Fiber One Oats & Chocolate. more...
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2985 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Precor Elliptical - 38 minutes, Driving - 2 hours, Desk Work - 8 hours and 56 minutes, Resting - 4 hours and 26 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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