mbd121's Journal, 30 July 2020

And there is it. 260. Im so pissed at myself - and yet that didnt stop me from demolishing the bag of Lime Tostitos yesterday. Lots of thoughts going through my head about it - some outrageous, some over-dramatic, some that are actually rational.

Instead of saying things like "UHG I hate myself", Im going to say - OK, heres where I am. Now what?

What do I need to succeed?
Why am I letting go of my goals?
How do I get back to where I was a year ago?
Who can I recruit to be my support team?

So I updated my macro goals a couple of days ago and then went into work meetings for two days. I got to do them from home which was great, but I really just snacked way too much. I didnt log or weigh because I felt crappy (which probably just made me feel crappier). I did Zoom workouts with my coworkers over lunch with a quick amrap on Tuesday, and Yoga on Wednesday. Im planning on yoga over lunch today. The trainer I dont like is filling in again tonight at the gym and I feel stuck - its raining so no outside workouts at home. My goal is to make it to the gym 3x's a week so if I miss tonight, then Ill only have made it once. I hate to miss out on it so I dont know what to do yet. I guess Ill wait and see what the weather looks like after work. Working out isnt my main issue though. Missing the gym isnt what is keeping me from my goals.

I signed up for a nutrition course but I dont know if its exactly what Im looking for, but it might get me in the right direction. I think I will also download an audiobook about emotional eating and see if that helps too.

I cant keep staying stuck. I have to move on. Ok Im still a little dramatic about it. 🤷‍♀️
260.5 lb Lost so far: 7.0 lb.    Still to go: 78.5 lb.    Diet followed N/A.

Diet Calendar Entries for 30 July 2020:
1328 kcal Fat: 50.56g | Prot: 78.34g | Carb: 142.89g.   Breakfast: Forest Leaf Advanced Collagen Peptides, Delights Southwest Style Breakfast Wrap. Lunch: Lay's Baked! Sour Cream & Onion Flavored Potato Crisps (Package), Subway 6" Steak & Cheese. Snacks/Other: Cucumber (with Peel), Wonderful Chili Roasted Pistachios. more...
2230 kcal Activities & Exercise: Fitbit - 24 hours. more...
gaining 4.7 lb a week

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And reported. Up to you whether you want to accept the offer. 🤣 
30 Jul 20 by member: Katsolo
Actually, I'd delete their response if you know how. 
30 Jul 20 by member: Katsolo
I mean...its the best offer Ive had in a while so... 🤣🤣 
30 Jul 20 by member: mbd121
But also reported and deleted because - wow. 
30 Jul 20 by member: mbd121
Right? Why? I’m fairly sure anytime into that can find it quickly elsewhere on the internet.  
30 Jul 20 by member: Katsolo
I listen to the podcast Insatiable by Ali Shapiro. It has tons of different episodes to choose from. I struggle with binge eating & overeating and listening to an episode has pulled me out from the deep a time or two. I try and get back to the habits and ways of eating that felt good before (same foods, times of day I was eating, etc) and get out of my head about it all, with loads of compassion and distraction❤️ 
30 Jul 20 by member: LeiLei84
Sounds like you have a good attitude towards making a change. Just keep moving forward. 💜 
30 Jul 20 by member: Diana 1234
Today's a new day. Don't beat yourself up about what you did yesterday. You're only human. You can start fresh right now.  
30 Jul 20 by member: lonniehuffman
Mbd121. I'm new the app. However, I'm about 4 months into my weight loss. I'm male, 57, and topped the scale at 253. Today, I hit 198. I'm within 10lbs of my goal. Based on your numbers, you have a bit more than I did, but not really that much. You can do it! I would like to offer you a few words of encouragement and hopefully helpful advice. 1. Keep in mind that regardless of what anyone tells you, going to the gym and weightlifting burns hardly any calories (not sure if that is what you are doing at the gym, just in case). Yes, muscle development long term helps boost your metabolism. That said, the first 4 months of my weight loss adventure, I did not go to the gym at all. All I did was walk twice a day. I started out with two short walks and slowly added to the distance everyday. I put on my earbuds and listen to some good music and walk my two dogs. I'm now up to 3.5 miles each walk. Each walk now clocks in at about 400 calories burned, so that an extra 800 a day, just for walking. Cardio is the way to go for weight loss. Once you get in better cardio shape and shed some lbs (like I had to), you can then progress to toning what you have. 2. Remember the simple rule, burn more calories each day than you take in. The thing that worked for me was intermittent fasting. I'm sure you've heard of it. I would stop taking in any calories after 8pm, and then not eat until after noon the next day. Essentially skipping breakfast. There's lots of good literature out there on the health benefits to this approach. Ignore that voice in your head about breakfast being the most important meal of the day. That's crap. I can attest that the first 3 weeks for me was hard, couldn't wait until noon. However, as I stuck with it, it really really does get easier. You're body's circadian rhythm really adapts, and gets used to it. I ended up pushing my eating time out to about 3pm for a snack, and then just a healthy dinner. It is worth thinking about trying it. 3. To keep me regular and fuller feeling, I did drink a lot of hat water in the morning with some fiber powder. I find the least expensive one is based on the ingredient dextrin. 4. I started watching some different youtube videos and really have moved over to an Anabolic type diet. This is not like Palio, or other 'named' diets. It simply acknowledges that the two main factors in weight loss being sustainable are to ensure you get enough protein (so you don't burn muscle while you lose weight), that you take in fewer calories than you burn each day, and that you try and eat foods higher in fiber and that are bulkier so you stay full longer. They also include a variety of foods with lower sugar, and use things like Stevia instead. While you may not be into the body building scene, check out the Anabolic recipe videos by James Reddington on Youtube. He may come across as a bit of a tool at first, but he's really got a good heart, pretty funny, and makes a lot of sense. I thrived on my dieting after I discovered his recipes. Especially the flatbread pizza's he makes. If you have a dog, start walking them! If you don't, borrow a friends or get one! They are unconditional providers of love and affection, and really motivate you to walk. Walking is the key! Trust me. Walk, walk, walk, walk. Easy on the joints, great for the mind and sole. And as you probably know, it takes 3500 calories to make up a pound of weight gain or loss. So reducing your daily intake by just 500 calories a day, plus about 4 miles of walking a day adds another 500. That's 1000 burned per day! 7000 a week, which is 2 lbs a week! And, if you get motivated, you can walk even further (which I do several times a week. You can do it!!!! And in just a few short months none of your cloths will fit anymore, but you'll have to get smaller clothes this time instead of bigger! I'm not a slogan guy, but take it from the Nike saying "Just do it". And you can. And you'll feel really good! Good luck. Hang in there. Dave. 
30 Jul 20 by member: dpwright44
Don't look at your process as dramatics. you are eliminating negative thoughts so they don't stumble you on your way out of the yucky tunnel of regrets. the chips were good (see past tense) and give you yet another reason to go forward. The gym situation gives you a place to start pushing forward towards improved time management. See not drama, progress! You seem to have a good head on your shoulders, keep it held high and facing forward, not what got you started but where you are going to be. 
30 Jul 20 by member: Yasdewen
Keep it steady 👍 
30 Jul 20 by member: aaronpark
Stay strong and keep moving forward don’t look back to long it will hinder you from moving forward 😀 
30 Jul 20 by member: jnuko
Well I have a hot dog as my avatar. I don’t get this app at all. Wasted $$$ for me 
30 Jul 20 by member: Becky RN
One shift that I made was how to look at my activity goals. Instead of saying "my goal is to walk 4 times a week" I say, "I will not let two days go by without walking" In the first mindset, I would put it off and put it off and get to Friday and have to walk 4 times or give up and wait till the next week. In the second mindset, I can skip a day, ok maybe 2 but if i do FOR SURE i have to walk on the third day. That way I get in at LEAST 2-3 walks a week. 
30 Jul 20 by member: ASaucyGal
Try Paleo. (all the meat, veggies, you want plus moderate amounts of fruit) And get all the junk food outta that house!  
30 Jul 20 by member: pambitious1
-- I went backwards earlier this year, weight went up to 265 (i am 5'3"!!) an now I am trying this new approach, actually back on track for 5 days now and I AM SO FULL OF ENERGY, GOOD MOOD AND I AM NOT HUNGRY. Much love from a chip and donut addict.  
30 Jul 20 by member: pambitious1
Looking forward is the way to go. Many interesting comments but I have to say that Dpwright44 is worth a read and some points, the walking and the intermittent fasting are a recipe for success!  
30 Jul 20 by member: Ireland-83
Oh good, that was a quick flush on the troll.  
30 Jul 20 by member: Katsolo

     
 

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