kickingcarbs's Journal, 25 January 2019

Transformation!!!!!! Beautiful!!! 👌 

I'm a recovering addict & we all have a past. Believe in yourself 💯 & forget what the jerks say. This is your life & your journey. Keep the Faith ❣️ 

Wow! To say that you've had a rough go at things is an understatement. You are to be commended for your will power to continue fighting for your life's ambitions and goals. I must tell you that having read this and seeing your desire, ability, and patience with all aspects of your life and still manage to come out such a beautiful woman and person is truly amazing! For that you are my hero and I'm certain a hero to others as well. Congratulations on your drive thus far......you have shown us what it is like to keep striving when life gets us down......! God Bless You.  

You are a wonder unto yourself and others....I commend you for your strength. Beautiful things can grow out of the ashes....just have to take one look at you to know that. God bless you....keep your head up and reach for the stars. 

Wow you are an incredible lady. So strong and fearless. I am betting you could do anything and so beautiful too. :-)  

I love this community so much. Thank you all for your kind words and support. I hope each of you reach the top of your mountain.  

Beauty from ashes!! 💓💓💓 

Keith George, I believe that every individual is responsible for their own journey. That's why we have free will. Although, if you do believe in a higher power, it doesn't hurt to ask for His/Her support or dare I say, blessing? 

I think faith is an amazing thing. Sadly I dont have any and that's probably because of everything I went though. There was no god in those dark places for me. But I appreciated him giving me credit cause I did work very hard. Thank you both for the support you gave me in your own ways. ;)  

Kickingcarb's, I completely understand where you are coming from after what you have gone through. And I am thankful that you are able to appreciate other's points of view. Keep up that amazing drive! 💚 

OMG! You look like a baby. What courage you have! It is hard for me to break the mental hurdle I have created as my safe place. (I bigger and uglier I am the less abuse I will receive) So, for the last 45 extra weight was my safe space. Currently at 203lbs down from 248 lbs It is a struggle, secretly I would rather eat than have someone look at me that way. You are an inspiration!! 

Anytimenow, you are very brave. I used my weight as a safe place too. It still scares me losing it cause I cant tell the difference between catching someone's eye because I lost weight and they see me now or someone still being disgusted with me. Or someone looking at me and seeing the hurt and knowing they can hurt me too. I did use my weight as a shield. Who would want to rape me if they were repulsed by me... sadly that cloak I created didnt stop it. The only person I deterred from myself by my size was me. I understand completely how you feel but I can tell you that in this journey of losing weight I have found so much strength, some of the strength I have always been looking for. And this community has given me even more strength. Feel free to message me. I love to help.