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Havent felt like journaling lately. No explination for that. I have been so grateful for all I have learned through this journey though. Tools I will need and use from here on. That is so exciting. Now having said that, I don't always get into my tool box and use what I have. For some unknown reason I have been on a donut craze lately. Eating about two every day. What the heck is that all about?! It is mind numbing the dumb things I do to my self to keep me from success. Years of therapy may help. I think in my head I am in maintenance mode. All the compliments have been great and motivating but I think I've crossed some imaginary line. In my under developed mind I am hearing you look good just the way you are. There's no way to say this without sounding full of myself but I do look good. More importantly, I feel great! Still, I have a short distance to go. Much much shorter than I ever thought possible. I so want to finish what I have started. I want to finish strong. I want to win! So what the heck are all the donuts about?!? Crazy. My work-outs have been great. Yesturday at the gym I felt like an athlete working out. I felt strong, determined and confident. Then I showered and went for a donut. This too shall pass. Knowledge is power and I have the knowledge. Just need to power it up. Room for improvement but boy I have come along way. The momentum has shifted and I need to adapt, donut free. I am not done yet. Doubt I will ever be "done". This will be a new lifestyle. It's great that I can enjoy the results so far of all my work but I can not loiter there. Time to re-commit, again, and move forward. Will need to search this weekend for the passion. I let my ego take over and it has over riden my brain. In all fareness to me though, compliments have never been a part of my life. Looking good and feeling good are foreign too. I am still learning. I can still enjoy the postive comments while plugging ahead. My goal for this weekend is to get my head back into the game. Time to re-focus, find that determination that got me this far and bring back the passion to succeed. Yep, BIG goal but certainly do-able. I've proven that to myself already. "I'm not as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be." Forward motion!
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