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So i'm just going to come clean with it. I cheated on Tuesday. I ate like a pig (well, compared to my new lifestyle, it was way excessive). It certainly isn't close to what i used to gorge on, but it was far too much and far too unhealthy.
So, why did i do it? I'm really not sure. I had thought about it for a few hours before placing the order. I tried, and failed, at talking myself out of it. I guess i wanted to see what it tasted like again. I guess i wanted to see if i could do it.
I knew the whole time that it would send my body into a tailspin. That i would gain weight (water weight at the least). I knew i would feel bloated. I knew i would feel guilty. I knew that i would enjoy it for only the few short minutes it took me to eat it all.
Ugh.
So today is Thursday and i'm still "getting over it". I'm getting over it physically (have gained 2 pounds on the scale that aren't going anywhere quick). I'm getting over it emotionally and trying to understand why i did it and how i can make sure to not do it again.
I am going to get over this. I am going to persevere over this weight issue that i have. I will be OK with going off plan on the rare occasion.
Anyway, i just wanted to get this off my own chest. Log it to read back over in the future. Realize how to move forward and allow myself to forgive myself.
Here's to a new day!
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