I'm still having issues. My depression is really trying to surface and take over. But I'm fighting it. Sometimes we just need tot ake a break, and well...i took one for over a month. maybe you just need a little break hun. You WILL find it again. You have come to far to go back now, and I know that you REALLY KNOW THAT. You are someone I look to for motivation because I know you WANT this just as bad as i do...and you WILL get to your goal. Give yourself a hug and try again today and then tomorrow.....one of these days will stick and it will be full steam ahaead again. =)