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Today is a really special day for me! I started my weightloss journey at 343 lbs, and today I said goodbye to the 300's forever and hit 295. That's probably the lowest weight I've been since I graduated high school. That's sad, but it's true. I have been feeling sooo good. I've been able to buy a few new clothes items from Old Navy which was a target store for me since I couldn't fit in their clothes before. Still can't do the jeans there but I betcha I'll be able to by Christmas :). I'm also starting to receive that attention from people who are noticing my weight loss. I've lost 48 lbs now, which is just a drop in the bucket since I have so much to lose but it feels like a real accomplishment. I'll break 50 next week! It's real this time- I'm actually doing it and not giving up, and I'm starting to finally see a difference in the mirror for the first time. My confidence is coming back slowly but surely, and it feels good that I'm making myself a priority for once. I'm starting to realize that my identity is not "the big girl". That's not who I am, it's just what I had identified myself as for the longest time because I was miserable but too scared and weak to do anything to change it. I want to be known as Sonya, the outgoing, bubbly, funny loving person, not the girl who's big but still has a pretty face and a nice personality. I'm starting to see that in myself more, and I'm happy. 2009 is definitely going down in my book as the most life-changing year I've experienced (got married, gained 3 stepkids, went to insurance school, lost weight, etc). I can't wait to start out 2010 with a BANG- I'm gonna set a goal of 25 more lbs by new year.
*toast*
Here's to finding yourself and loving who you find!
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