|
It's truly crazy what can keep me awake at night! I was supposed to go to NH with my tennis friends for a girls weekend this coming weekend to go to the pumpkin festival there -- one of them have a second home there. But, it's been unclear as to if/who is going. One of the ladies can't go until Sun, one has to be back for Sun, and 2 haven't responded. I was feeling frustrated, wanting to know the plans, how meals would work, what I'd need to bring, what I'd want to have to wear, etc. I finally let ii go as i remembered a bible quote I read online yesterday from Philippians 4 -- "Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything". I'm a work in progress also as to my spiritual life, but I am a believer and am re- dedicating myself to improve that aspect of my life as I venture along their journey to improve my health & happiness.
ATF & ATL continues to go well, and the unsettled feelings recently have mostly gone and been replaced with a gentler, kinder feeling of acceptance… acceptance that I am not and never will be perfect nor will I eat or live perfectly. So, I continuously remind myself that perfection is not my goal -- progress is, and acceptance is a big part of that for me. I had a good conversation with my health coach yesterday about how much less anxious I'm feeling in general, how much more accepting and how I'm learning to recognize the negative self-talk and re-frame it into something more positive or at least nonjudgmental. Progress, that I'm sorry to boast about here, but I must remind myself of, especially after a restless night of needless worry.
Today, I'm off to spin class shorty and then have book work for the afternoon. With my reduced bookkeeping load, I'll also update and re-prioritze that never-ending to-do list. But first, I'll start my day in the best way possible as I found also works during sleepless nights -- I'll pray --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And, I'll pray, breathe, log, journal, stay curious and express my way through this one day and each one meal, bite, thought, moment and emotion. I'm so, so grateful for each of too-good-to-be-true you, my family & IRL friends, finding solace in spirituality, knowing a good nights sleep is again ahead, and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 15 October 2014:
|
1467 kcal
|
Fat: 89.31g | Prot: 83.26g | Carb: 89.87g.
Breakfast: Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, White Toque Grilled Eggplant, Trader Joe's Grilled Asparagus Spears, Trader Joe's Fire Roasted Bell Peppers & Onions, Egg White, Egg. Lunch: Famoso Roasted Red Pepper, Peloponnese Kalamata Olives, Trader Joe's Frozen Edamame, Trader Joe's Alaskan Pink Salmon, Mixed Salad Greens, Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Egg White, Raw Vegetable. Dinner: Luvo Puttanesca Style Chicken. Snacks/Other: Roasted Brussel Sprouts, Uno Chicago Grill Roasted Seasonal Vegetables, Trader Joe's Fancy Raw Mixed Nuts. more...
|
|
2020 kcal
|
Activities & Exercise:
Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Bicycling (very fast) - 17.5/mph - 1 hour. more...
|
|