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I figured it was time for me to write another journal entry, just so that i can look back at my running tab of successes and hard work. :-)
I splurged this weekend, but am pretty well back down to where i was when i last weighed in, which feels great. I should show another loss by this coming Sunday. *fingers crossed*
Yesterday a few times, and today once or twice, i caught myself imagining a delicious pizza and devouring the whole thing (like i've done quite a few times in the past). It has sounded so great and i haven't been able to get my mind off of it. I know a lot of people would say, "just order it and eat a slice or two, there's nothing wrong with that". However, i'm incapable having just one or two slices, and the whole thing would end up in my tummy by the end of the night. I would then feel horrible about myself and wish that i hadn't wasted another day of getting healthy.
So i suppose that's partially why i'm writing this journal. I want to get it out there that though those 10-20 minutes of eating (yes, i'm a shoveler), would taste great, the feeling afterwards and the idea of wasting a day is just not worth it.
Last night i went home and ate my normal dinner of salad and potato with lots of fixings. I was full. I didn't think about the pizza again all night. But for some reason the thought of it has crept up in my mind again today and i'm yet again trying to shake it.
I'm going to be heading home from work soon and will get in my groove and eat dinner and be fine (and happy with myself).
I just hate these cravings. I really think that if i never got the cravings and thought about the delicious pizza, i wouldn't eat it. It's just my brain likes to remind me every now and again of how great food tastes.
Ugh!!! Here's to another day of happiness along this journey (no matter how riddled with hard times it is).
Diet Calendar Entries for 16 March 2011:
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1504 kcal
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Fat: 51.18g | Prot: 88.92g | Carb: 188.59g.
Breakfast: splenda, green tea. Lunch: cat's cookies, can't say it's cheese, annie's pretzels, vegan tortilla soup. Dinner: cant say its cheese, Original Vegan Meatless Burgers, Northwest Super Sweet Frozen Cut White Corn, Mixed Salad Greens, Yumm Sauce, Baked Potato (Peel Eaten), Home Style Beefless Tips. Snacks/Other: thin mints. more...
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2676 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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