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Man, today I am soo having a really bad day. I started out eating really well, but I was talking to someone of facebook who my mom didn't like and we got into a fight. I went into the kitchen and my little brothers had some left over macaroni and cheese, and I so was ready to eat 2 cups of it!! I even microwaved it, put ketchup on it, and it is now sitting beside me. My head is saying don't eat it!! but my sadness and my emotions are just saying to give up. I need to keep on going though. I need to just stay on track with my eating. I need to, or I will just keep gaining weight. And even though that this day is not turning out to be so great, I need to keep going because this day will only last so long. It will only last 8 more hours. I can get through it. I just need to throw out this mac n cheese and move on. Drink water, right? I feel like I'm so alone in my thinking and diet and way of life. I am trying the best I can to be a great mom, and to be a healthy mom. But it is soo hard when it feels like everything is against you. I soo just need to take a few moments to myself and think about what I should do. And maybe then, I can forgive my mom, and move on with my life. I think that will be best. Maybe cross-stitch a little bit. I enjoy that!
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