GlennM's Journal, 12 December 2008

Good luck on the woman search. Finances are tough EVERYWHERE right now, so don't beat yourself up over that. It's RARE that any family can live off of just one income. 

My sisters are both doing it. One has a husband with a good job. The other has a boyfriend who doesn't work but has benefits. Women are seeking someone I've discovered who can take care of them, and I can't do that. My sister who has the husband and doesn't work travels, they bought a new car in October - not used, they're constantly fixing up their Victorian house. Yet they COULD live better if my sister worked full-time, they're just not living beyond their means. The house is paid off too. Anyway, I'm thinner, so I'm better looking to women. But I have a phobia of driving and never got my driver's license and never will. EVER. It is a problem too. Women don't like men who don't drive, I've discovered over the years. Anyway, as my income is low, in the bottom ten to twenty per cent, I am going to have to meet a very kind, loving woman at age 46 when my twin sister owns a house outright, travels extensively, has money in the bank, a large family, and I'm alone and won't be having kids. At age 46 one usually already has the house, car, boat, camper, vacations, etc. I have none of it. I really can barely afford to date. I'm not whining, but am being realistic. In the USA my overweight dad at age 64 is way more marketable than me with a house, lots of various parcels of land, a good retirement, cars, ability to travel, etc. A woman who can take care of herself well is seeking a guy with a similar income or prospects for that. But I'm happy with life - it is too short to be miserable about this. I love women and understand their situations. I ordered some CDs to get motivated for my writing and getting organized, and I'll order more eventually to give me motivation to stop procrastinating at times. I am the only one who can decide if I want to be happy here and now. I'm a success weight-wise. If women don't want me because I'm not wealthy, so be it. Some woman will eventually. I've been alone for years because I'm low income. She'll come in the next year or two. I can wait. I managed to lose lots of weight successfully. Now it is time to get my books published. I can do it. And get a girlfriend who will accept me for me and not because I'm a good prospect only. I make it from check to check now - the only one in my family, everyone else is doing very well. I'm alone though. As the Howard Jones song says: "Things Can Only Get Better". glenn :)  

Things will get better, Glenn. Keep hanging in there!  

Thanks mbhpro. I have to count my blessings. So many young friends of mine have passed in the last ten years - some I just worked with. And one a young man my close friend when I lived in a rooming house before my present apartment 13 years younger who I was friends with who was like a kid brother who I was friends with every day for months - like eight months until I moved. He passed from leukemia at age 25 in Feb 2001 - a form common in children and people under age 30. It still is too hard to believe, and I live in a large apartment complex and every few months it seems we lose somebody. I've lost three female friends whom I was very close to since 1999, all a lot older natural causes - two cancer, one heart trouble. 200 people live in my building so it is very common to have someone pass. Every day we have here is truly a blessing... So money isn't everything, and the Higher Power or Whoever is in charge up there keeps trying to get it through my thick skull to just enjoy life and be happy. All we have is NOW and everyone is equal in the end. So I've been doing affirmations - for a GUY - and I started today. They really are helping. Everyone should do them they change your whole outlook on everything!!! Thanks mbhpro for the kind words... glenn :)