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I'm upset and I need to step away from the food.
If you've been following the news, then you probably already heard about Tyler Clementi, a freshman at Rutgers who jumped off the George Washington Bridge after his gross roommate posted a sex tape of him on the internet.
This strikes home for several reasons - obviously, the suicide first. Second, the bullying, something I went through and probably would've had the same idea as Tyler. Then there's the fact that I too go to Rutgers and one of the perps is from the town I live in. I also have a very deep sneaking suspicion I used to work with his mom.
So needless to say, it brings up a lot and breaks my heart. That on top of the stress I've had the past few weeks and I'm just... I guess trying not to feel right now? All I can think of is the asshole who wrote me that email a few weeks back (who pretty much IS a cyber bully even if she's in her late 40s) and how even at 30 it was tough to deal with.
I'm 30 and it's tough, I couldn't imagine dealing with it at 18. If camera phones were around in the mid 90s I would not be alive today. I can pretty much guarantee it because I was completely tormented growing up. I know at least one of the ringleaders would've posted some kind of picture of me somewhere and I probably would've lost it. Hell, even without the technology, I barely made it through.
My heart breaks for Tyler Clementi and his family. No one should ever have to go through something like this. It's just not okay ever. I live in one of the most liberal areas of the country and go to a school that's probably one of the most diverse in the country and crap like this can still happen. What's wrong with the world?
Seriously, something has to be wrong with the world when an 18 year old kid jumps off the damn George Washington Bridge.
I'm going to take a nap, maybe if I cry myself to sleep I won't empty my fridge.
Sigh.
Diet Calendar Entries for 30 September 2010:
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1908 kcal
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Fat: 51.58g | Prot: 107.42g | Carb: 255.02g.
Breakfast: Green Tea, Greek Style Nonfat Yogurt - Pomegranate, Cheese Wedges, Bagel Thins - Everything, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Milk (Nonfat). Lunch: Strawberry Fruit Bar, Rold Gold Honey Wheat Braided Twists Pretzels, Turkey Breast, Light String Cheese, Apples, Sliced Lite Provolone Cheese. Dinner: buffalo chicken breast, light ice cream, apple, Light String Cheese, mini babybel light, trader joe's kung po chicken bowl. Snacks/Other: sesame sticks, trader joe's 100 calorie dark chocolate, No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Plantation Mint Tea. more...
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3296 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 30 minutes, Driving - 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 6 hours and 35 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 10 minutes, Sitting - 30 minutes. more...
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I need to update here to say that I was so proud of my alma mater last year when a hate group came to protest the hillel (apparently they were protesting the fact that we have Jews... in New Jersey.) and this whole initiative sparked up called Rutgers Against Hate and I was so proud to be part of this school, part of this community.
30 Sep 10 by member: suechru
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OMG! So sorry. I'm sending hugs and as much healing thought as I can. Remember, we have no control over others, only over ourselves and Karma's a bitch. The nasty people DO eventually pay. I've lived 66 years and I've seen it happen over and over again. Take that nap and a few healthy tears never hurt anyone.
30 Sep 10 by member: Johanne
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I understand exactly what you're saying, Sue. I look around and I just wonder how people can be so nasty and vile. And it's frightening because these are YOUNG people. What kind of children are we raising? You step back, take care of you and do something to make yourself feel calm (meditate, sleep, listen to music...).
30 Sep 10 by member: whaea7
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Sue, yes I head about this tragic story and it is very heartbreaking. I was thinking about the bullies and how broken they are for carrying out their awful deed. Causing someone to end their life is horrifying to me. I was thinking how fragile life is and how harmful deeds ripple and hurt all. Take care of your self Sue because you are so worth the effort. TOWANDA!!!!
30 Sep 10 by member: Lisa Online
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Well, you have friends here, and we know what it's like to be picked on. I think it should remind all of us to be a little more kind and caring to those around us. It could be your friendship or small act of kindness might keep someone from jumping off a bridge.
01 Oct 10 by member: Runesinger
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Thanks, everyone. It's just such a sad thing that hit so close to home and being super tired doesn't help anything. In other news, I really need to stop wearing these size 20 jeans. I had to make ANOTHER tighter loop on my belt to keep them up. Would've tried some stuff on but was pressed for time this morning
01 Oct 10 by member: suechru
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Ugh...what an awful situation. I have to say it makes me think of the public safety alerts that come into my univ. email every time a crime occurs involving a student. I get several every week. Hang in there babe.
01 Oct 10 by member: kstubblefield
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