redwinelover's Journal, 30 September 2010

I've avoided recording this number for 10 days, at least. In fact, my last "weigh in" was due to a challenge (I suck at these - the reporting, not the doing) and it automatically recorded my previous weight as my new weight. So I think my last true weigh in was the 18th. That was the day after the concert, the 8+ hrs of standing, and most likely a little dehydrated. So maybe the 130 wasn't really a TRUE weight. Regardless, THIS is ridiculous. Two weeks ago today, I was 131.6. So a whopping POINT FOUR (.4) pounds lost in TWO WEEKS. I HATE THIS. I HATE THE SCALE, I HATE HOW IT DOESN'T SEEM TO REALLY DEPEND UPON WHAT I DO!!! I'm sorry for yelling here, but I've just about HAD it. NO, not gonna give up. Just need to vent. Besides, for all I know, that .4 lbs could just be a fluctuation and I may still weigh the same as two weeks ago. I didn't have a weight entry for the first, so I'll assume it's between the two numbers before that date and after and call it 133.2. TWO pounds in a MONTH?? Really? And to add insult to injury, that's WHILE I did four of the most intense weeks of exercise, the last four weeks of Insanity. Not making sense and I really want to throw the damn scale out. How can this be? Even WITH a sluggish metabolism from thyroid, it shouldn't be THIS bad. I want to scream, I've already cried some this morning... tears of frustration. It'd so be ONE thing if I kept messing up, or missed workouts or something, but I haven't. I DID have two days this month I didn't even bother recording, knowing that I ate nearly as much as I burned, well, probably within 400 - 500 calories, so didn't bother adding those days into it. Even if I somehow screwed up recording food daily... even if I ADD 300 calories to what I've eaten EVERY DAY for that time, I STILL should have lost nearly 7 lbs (6.9) -- NOT less than half a pound. Screw it. I'm upset, frustrated, depressed, and even PISSED off right now. YES, I know I should stay off the damn scale. Like Klannoye...I let it determine how I feel and how I approach the day and that's stupid. AND I know it's just a "tool" for weight management, but let's face it...it's one of the best tools we have overall. Because yes, you will lose inches, which is really what it's all about, but sooner or later, that scale will reflect your body size. So, as much as I hate that damn thing, I still have a sort of respect for it as a measuring device. Although right now I wouldn't mind throwing it through a plate glass window.

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At Klannoye's urging, I decided what the heck...post a picture of a little muscle (thanks Shaun T). I think if you highlight and right click that, the drop down box has an option to go to http:// etc. and then you, too, can see one of my "guns" LOL... someone's gotta tell me if this worked

131.2 lb Lost so far: 43.8 lb.    Still to go: 6.2 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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1296 kcal

Fat: 13.97g | Prot: 49.80g | Carb: 166.95g.   Breakfast: organic flax pumpkin granola, greek style yogurt, muscle milk protein, 1% Lowfat Milk, English Walnuts, Almonds, Strawberries, Blueberries. Lunch: sourdough bread, celery, red pepper, eating right baby carrots, Cherry Tomatoes. Dinner: cabernet sauvignon, Kellogg's fiber, cantaloupe, grapes. Snacks/Other: laughing cow, sourdough bread, plum. more...

2338 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Standing - 3 hours and 33 minutes, Housework - 3 hours, Calisthenics (light, e.g. home exercise) - 58 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 10 minutes, Calisthenics (heavy, e.g. pushups) - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 49 minutes. more...