miteslur's Journal, 15 August 2008

PPpphhhffffttt! Same weight as yesterday. I do think part of my problem is that I'm not eliminating (sp?) my food properly or regularly. Basically, I think I am plugged up! LOL When I was taking the Orovo, I was very regular and am sure it was what's considered 'proper' and 'normal'. After I quit taking it, things haven't been the same. I think I need to find something to help me become regular again. I don't really want to take the Orovoj, again, as that was an expensive way to do THAT. I'm open to suggestions!
I'm feeling a little puffy today, too. I think it's the heat. I've been trying to drink my water but think I could use more!
I watched Joyce Meyer this morning and learned a new way to look at eating. I'm sure I can't rephrase it nearly as well as she said it but here is the jist. She was talking about selfishness and how you can't be selfish and happy at the same time. She used an example of how she wanted one thing and her husband wanted another. She was politely persistant in telling her husband she didn't like what he wanted. Eventually, he gave in and said 'fine, get what you want'. Momentarily, she was happy because she 'won'...but only momentarily. Then she went on to use food as another example. She has taught herself that eating something that gives the taste buds explosive satisfaction for about 2 minutes (i.e. monster hot fudge sundaw) isn't worth the amount of time it takes to get rid of the outcome from that 2 minute satisfaction. The old saying 'a moment on the lips, forever on the hips'?? Well, she has trained herself to realize that even though eating those chocolate chip cookies will satisfy her flesh/selfishness for just a few minutes, it won't last...so why go there? The consequences take us years to get over. YEARS to get over 2 minutes worth of satisfaction multiplied by however many 2-minute episodes we have. I know I've heard this many times before but the way she said it and the tone of voice and humor just really hit home.
I already know what a chocolate chip cookie tastes like. I can even imagine the texture and flavor, if I think about it long enough. So, if I know what it tastes like and I know it only takes a couple of minutes, at most, to eat and enjoy it, why am I willing to suffer with the added weight gain (consequences)? Is it REALLY that important that I eat it? She also pointed out that the flesh will cry and scream if it doesn't get it's way. Much like taking a bottle away from a baby that doesn't want to give it up. If you keep giving the bottle back, the baby will continue to cry and scream for it whenever you take it away. However, with a little persistance of not giving the bottle back, in a short time baby will get over it and move on.
So, that is going to be my goal over the next couple of weeks. I'm going to allow my selfishness to scream and cry, by not giving it what it wants, and all the while remind myself that the satisfaction of giving in will only last a few moments and that really, truly, it won't be 'worth it'.
Thank God it's FRIDAY!