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FBS 145
I ate a whole pizza myself last night for dinner: a medium thin crust with tomatoes and mushrooms. I think that was rather excessive. It wasn't even all that good. Crust was a bit cardboard-y, was luke warm and kind of dry. Obvious wasn't eating for hunger there. True appetite is not really the issue with obesity is it? Hail to the future billionaire who finds a away to cure the obese of WHY we eat so much.
There were 2 times when eating was just a normal activity for me. One time I had an illness that completely wiped out my sense of smell and thus my ability to taste food - I did not want to eat really ... there was no joy or pleasure in it so overeating was not even an issue during that time period. The second time was when I was on phen-fen. Again there was no "pleasure" in eating - I didn't turn to food for comfort. I also had more energy, stamina, drive, motivation, etc. I lost 15 - 20 pounds a month without even having to try - no pain whatsoever. That may have been the time in my adult life when I felt the best.
I remember the day when I first truly realized that I used food for comfort. I was driving home after a 10 hour day at work - an hour long commute in the dark with too much traffic. I remember thinking to myself "what could I eat dinner?" something delicious, that would give me pleasure while eating it and make me feel better. I felt a little bouyed just by the thought of all the deliciousness and pleasure I would receive. Sadly while it did make me self-aware and did curb that behavior to a small extent it is a behavior that I still repeat though to a much lesser degree.
Enough catharsis for one morning :)
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