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Well, I really needed to get to the store to buy food (scrounging around the fridge just wasn't going to do it again tonight) so that means I can't workout. You see, if I work out after work, then I'm a real smelly mess and I certainly can't been seen walking around Publix looking like who did it and ran. I can't go during lunch because after work I don't have a place to keep the stuff cool while I work out, so I decided to forgo exercise tonight in lieu of getting some good food for the house. I feel kinda guilty about it, even though I know I'll go on Saturday to make up for it. So, I had a low fat hotdog and a salad. Then for dessert I had a Breyers Carb Smart chocolate ice cream pop. That was good. But then I decided that I wasn't quite done and later I had a sugar free jello pudding and sugar free jello jello. Then, I had a handful of pistachios. I think I went overboard a bit and I'm feeling very guilty. But I'm so crazy that I feel guilty having something sugar free and on the diet. Its not like I ran over to the local pizza place and just pushed my face into a pie or pasta. I had an extra jello. Why do I feel so crappy? I'll tell you...its because I have a certain goal. I want to be 135 by 10/8...and I hate the fact that I didn't shut my mouth for the evening. I have always had my eye on the prize and I've been so very good and when I cheat its with foods that I can eat! How sick is that!
I've got to keep everything in perspective and not get upset about what happened. Actually, I didn't have a snack in the afternoon so I guess I had the pistachios later. See how crazy I am...I am rationalizing the stupid pistachios. Let it go Lori...Let it go...
Tomorrow is another day and I think I'll try to limit some of my calories a bit. Saturday is around the corner for a weigh in and I'm afraid I've gained. I need to hit 140 soon. I just do. I just feel that I exercise and I stay on the plan but I'm not losing..I just keep spinning my wheels. Arrrrg. Well, this long winded diatribe has taken up enough of my time. Have a wonderful night everyone...
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