Multiplicity1's Journal, 16 June 2010

Well I tried to go to bed but I couldn't go to sleep. I did some more forgiveness exercises which wound me up a bit. I prayed and prayed the rosary today and I did my affirmations out loud and visualized for 15 minutes and I read in my new books and took notes from one I had finished reading. I spoke to my sponsor about meeting with her and her husband tomorrow about our vow renewal. We got our invitations in the mail. They looked OK. I will have Jean help me address them so I can give them out next Wed. night. We have to write a map to enclose in the envelope. Our cake is getting ready. We have to finalize the music now and the vows. We are going to decide on vows tomorrow. I still have to figure out what to do about flowers. I might want a bouquet for me but just casual flowers for the tables. And after our vow renewal it will immediately be time for our trip to San Antonio. I am nervous that I might gain weight on the trip and I am closing in on onderland. The affirmations I liked today spoke of discovering the step by step divine plan of my life and of restoring divine order in my life. It is enjoyable reading the affirmations out loud. I also like the one about divine love and wisdom being united in me. My husband liked several having to do with work. I have decided I think I can heal myself of depression without medication (my husband is somewhat skeptical) but I feel if God can cure cancer He certainly can cure depression...I will see if I can get my doctor to start reducing my meds the next time I go see him. Cognitive therapy works just as well as meds for depression so I will use some of those techniques to get well but mainly the power of visualizing myself as mentally cheerful and healthy while calling on God's healing power. I am tired of being on all these meds and I know they can't be good for my body. Some of them significantly decrease my memory which makes it hard to learn and function at times. I am still sad about my friend leaving but it is a part of life I will have to adjust to. Have a delightful and properous day.

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1872 kcal

Fat: 157.16g | Prot: 76.84g | Carb: 49.97g.   Breakfast: Splenda, Baking powder, Cinnamon, Egg, Butter, Flax seeds. Lunch: Avocado, Cheddar cheese, Lettuce, Tomato. Dinner: Butter, Spinach, Butter, Mushrooms, Ground beef. Snacks/Other: Smuckers Peanut butter, Macadamia nuts. more...

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Activities & Exercise: Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 45 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 10 hours. more...